to 'lose it'

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perhaps this issue has been raised before... but here goes.

I've had times in the past where I have been so overwhelmed by a situation that I have quite literally lost it.

I'll give an example.

I was put in the psychiatric ward in may.. they treated me like crap... in the end, they decided to kick me out and my parrents were not around to collect me. They made me sign a form without telling me what it was for or what it meant.. and they pushed me out.
I didn't know what to do.. I felt very confused.
I began screaming, and banging my head and punching my face and I remember stumbling outside and shaking my arms and I just went to kneel down on the road still screaming... no-one helped me but I just heard a voice telling me to kill myself.

forget about the voice bit but does the rest sound like asperger's?
can anyone relate to this feeling of 'losing it'?

Charlie x

Well, I know i've definitely 'blown up' more times than i can count. They usually resulted in me being stuck in a psyche ward. Don't you hate that?

do I hate being in the psych ward?
hell yes.
one of the worst experiences I've ever had.
I hated going in but I guess I chose to go in (I was a voluntary patient) but then I got used to it and found a routine, then because I had glass on me one day (I self harmed) they decided to kick me out.

I hated being in there because no-one understood me and there were too many sounds and people and it got so overwhelming for me and the only ways in which I could deal with stuff was to bang my head.

The nurses in there were awful. I got called an attention seeker. They all believed me to have Borderline Personality Disorder, which I have never related to.

Psych wards are NOT a place for Aspies.

Charlie

Psych wards are definitely not good places for us. So unless you eat crayons or are particularly gifted with poop art, prolly best to stay away from there!

Wow, what a horrible experience for you. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this. I hope you can find something that works for you.

When I "lose it" I don't usually know I'm about it. By the time I'm in the place where I know I'm losing it, I just am way past being able to do anything about it. I usually don't know what's happened when I've lost it. Just a vague idea that I prolly should be a little embarassed about the previous hour of my life when it's over.

It usually happens when I'm completely overwhelmed and then when I feel like I'm being ganged up on or being picked on. It's a hard feeling.

Today I did. It was over having to color my picture on the computer again. It took a half an hour, but I didn't want to do it again... After my mom left, I began to slam the chair, throw objects and cry. I ended up leaving marks on my eye lids and giving myself a headache from punching my head.

The rest sounds like you were emotionally overwhelmed, and that was your breaking point. It could be due to an ASD, but it also could be due mental illness. You could ask for any notes the clinicians have on you, and their observations could give you an idea of where to look. Did you get a diagnosis of a mood or anxiety disorder (they tend to give someone depression or some anxiety disorder in the least if you make it to the "ward")?

I had a similar experience, with the voices telling me to kill people and all, but the mental hospital was a good place to me, and for me to be there (other than missing my mother, which sucked).