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3tripleL
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07 Dec 2008, 11:34 pm

Okay sooo...Im finally just joining this thing! So, I would have to say that I need some advice from the community on here, considering my situation, I guess.

So, I guess I would have to say, to sum it up, half neurotypical and half aspergers. Sounds kinda hard to pull off, but lety me expain before we get to hair splitting.

I was diagnosed as a kid prolly around 8 if I remember right. The stuff runs in my family, so I guess I have people to talk to about it. I was a strange little kid, I suppose. I never really had problems at home, just at school. I wouldnt listen to instructions at all in class. I would always talk about off topic stuff, and sometimes even go and walk around during nap times (That was kinda fun).

Elementary school was hell, and I remember my sixth grade teacher telling me I would never amount to much. She always kinda thought I was using the thing as a crutch, I suppose, since I was a brilliant student but could not behave. I was harassing people who pissed me off, and I remember one incident that really got out of hand, but I wont go into that :(

As Jr. High came round, I learned alot of social cues and stuff, and I had a couple of really good friends. This really helped in developing empathy and other skills. Freshman year in highschool I did alot of conforming and ended up for the most part being accepted. I did sports, and did okay considering I had only tried football and b-ball for the first time. I met new ppl, and I started to notice a kind of a pattern with myself.

I know what to do in a lot of social situations. Its kinda hard to describe, hard to quantify, but things just seem to click. Alot. Its kinda funny, interacting with NT's can be a paradox of sorts. You cant approach it logically, but with insinct almost. And you need an air of maturity to be taken seriously, so thats been developed. For a while, I didnt even let myself consider I had AS.

But eventually, I started to notice problems that led me to convince myself I have AS. I question alot of the things people do. Some just dont make sense, especially some of the mores society puts in place for us. In questioning these, I think I found the problem associated with AS. I follow the rules, most often to a T, but I dont understand some of them. And its thrown me for a loop.

So heres the thing. I can understand and interact with people, surprisingly well. But I question things to much. I question my judgements and vibes about others. Most of the time they are spot on, but I still wonder "Why?" This has been going on since my sophomore year in HS, now im in 11th grade.

So, 2 questions. Does anyone know of a situation similar to this? and Is it something that can be beaten, gotten over? Because thats what I wonder about the most, is if I can get around this. I treat it almost like cancer, like there is a way to fight it and beat it.



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08 Dec 2008, 12:25 am

I had the SAME thing, thinking I understood ALL the different things, except some leading questions, etc..., but DON'T try to become more comfortable with it. THAT is when it trips you up.



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08 Dec 2008, 1:33 am

u were diagnosed w/as at 8? your profile says undiagnosed.


3tripleL wrote:
Okay sooo...Im finally just joining this thing! So, I would have to say that I need some advice from the community on here, considering my situation, I guess.

So, I guess I would have to say, to sum it up, half neurotypical and half aspergers. Sounds kinda hard to pull off, but lety me expain before we get to hair splitting.

I was diagnosed as a kid prolly around 8 if I remember right. The stuff runs in my family, so I guess I have people to talk to about it. I was a strange little kid, I suppose. I never really had problems at home, just at school. I wouldnt listen to instructions at all in class. I would always talk about off topic stuff, and sometimes even go and walk around during nap times (That was kinda fun).

Elementary school was hell, and I remember my sixth grade teacher telling me I would never amount to much. She always kinda thought I was using the thing as a crutch, I suppose, since I was a brilliant student but could not behave. I was harassing people who pissed me off, and I remember one incident that really got out of hand, but I wont go into that :(

As Jr. High came round, I learned alot of social cues and stuff, and I had a couple of really good friends. This really helped in developing empathy and other skills. Freshman year in highschool I did alot of conforming and ended up for the most part being accepted. I did sports, and did okay considering I had only tried football and b-ball for the first time. I met new ppl, and I started to notice a kind of a pattern with myself.

I know what to do in a lot of social situations. Its kinda hard to describe, hard to quantify, but things just seem to click. Alot. Its kinda funny, interacting with NT's can be a paradox of sorts. You cant approach it logically, but with insinct almost. And you need an air of maturity to be taken seriously, so thats been developed. For a while, I didnt even let myself consider I had AS.

But eventually, I started to notice problems that led me to convince myself I have AS. I question alot of the things people do. Some just dont make sense, especially some of the mores society puts in place for us. In questioning these, I think I found the problem associated with AS. I follow the rules, most often to a T, but I dont understand some of them. And its thrown me for a loop.

So heres the thing. I can understand and interact with people, surprisingly well. But I question things to much. I question my judgements and vibes about others. Most of the time they are spot on, but I still wonder "Why?" This has been going on since my sophomore year in HS, now im in 11th grade.

So, 2 questions. Does anyone know of a situation similar to this? and Is it something that can be beaten, gotten over? Because thats what I wonder about the most, is if I can get around this. I treat it almost like cancer, like there is a way to fight it and beat it.


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-as of now official dx is ADHD (inattentive type) but said ADD (314.00) on the dx paper, PDD-NOS and was told looks like I have NLD


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08 Dec 2008, 1:45 am

I am recently diagnosed, and most of my life thought my peculiarities were of cultural origin ... I came to Australia as a displaced person after WW2, and had almost no further contact with people of my original nationality, except for my parents.

I fit in pretty well with NTs, and it can take them a while to realise that I'm different.

My official diagnosis is: "Shadows of Asperger's Syndrome". Hence the WP nickname. Asperger's Lite is probably also a suitable descriptive term.


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08 Dec 2008, 1:54 am

Your "Asperger's Lite" may just be mild AS. Alternatively, you may have an average form of it and part of you is in denial, and you deal with it by denying it in its entirety. Just a guess. Also, there is no cure, and I doubt there ever will be. It isn't exactly a disease ya know. Just a relatively rare configuration of the brain. You just have to live and learn by your mistakes. I suppose therapy could help, but I've heard it can do more damage than good.


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08 Dec 2008, 4:17 am

The mere thought of AS 'lite' is deeply complicated by the merging of the neurological and the psychological.

For example, many people with AS have survived a constant on going war with conformity. Survival took priority over autistic expression.

Denial and trauma can thus deeply mask the neurological complexity and difference of having AS.

Donna Williams is a great example of this, as being dx as autistic when she was in her mid-twenties, she was as a result of trauma forced into developing a near perfect NT persona........she could easily be a contender for AS 'lite' but under closer scrutiny she, like myself was a born surviver, and used creative expression to survive.

In the same way that many people people with AS have been mis-diagnosed with this that or the other, it would be equally un-wise to see either oneself or another with AS as having AS 'lite'..................

Appearances can be deeply deceptive. And ones experiences can be so hard to discern and evaluate.


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08 Dec 2008, 4:25 am

Most people don't realize that we are on the same spectrum as NT's, just at different positions. The closer you are to the NT end, the more NT qualities you will have, and vice-versa. Your situation is entirely possible, and is a normal variation.


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08 Dec 2008, 4:37 am

I have meet a child with AS that was more severly autistic than the children with low functioning autism. I see myself as a borderline autistic. Though was i diagnosed with mild autism. Every one on the spectrum is so different and there are alot of people who we call NT's who actaully would have autism or AS and have just never been diagnosed.