Approaching meltdown
crap I am so totally gonna freak out.
I was volunteering at the gallery yesterday, painting and I wanted to play some music and I couldnt get the CD player to work & this girl who is new and NOT supposed to be there came bouncing down the stairs all "lalala" and saw me trying to make the radio work & I asked her if she could help me fix and she's all "oh give me a sec." and she turned her stupid IPod on and I HATE her Ipod, all her music is blues and soft college "rock" ,even tho it was totally obvious I was trying to play my own music & then she went bouncing back upstairs like nothing & ugh, she makes my eyes hurt, everything about her f**k f**k f**k she is UGLY and annoying and giddy/hyper and makes jokes & flirts like it is nothing at all.
And she was there again today!
I started to cry over that stupid radio
but I had to wipe it off and go back upstairs like it's nothing & I cant keep faking today.
I am so tired.
I love finding deals at thrift shops. So cheap and easy.
Then you can finally have your music back. Music is my binky too. Makes everything better.
Make genius pictures and have a beautiful new day. Oh those genius pictures, sure do take a whole nother way of processing to function properly, compared to regular interactions.
Going from painting to problem solving, not an easy transition.
Take care
Edit: Or you can go to the person you have the most rapport with and say, the music box must be tweaked, so that I can play my music. HA! They will go, whaat? and fix it HA!
Then you can finally have your music back. Music is my binky too. Makes everything better.
Make genius pictures and have a beautiful new day. Oh those genius pictures, sure do take a whole nother way of processing to function properly, compared to regular interactions.
Going from painting to problem solving, not an easy transition.
Take care
Edit: Or you can go to the person you have the most rapport with and say, the music box must be tweaked, so that I can play my music. HA! They will go, whaat? and fix it HA!
Aha you made me smile
I think the music box is dead dead dead, but for some reason it works well with some odd Ipod attachment. Technology, ech, where is a good old fashioned CD player when you're about to freak out.
If I was making pictues I wouldn't need music but I was just painting walls for the new show & the silence was LOUD, the floor is wood and creaks and that girls voice ugh.
I would be fine if she would go away
Maybe life is too straight forward for her.
It is funny and horrible at once, but she just needs some good messin with.
Creaking floors are fun to me, cause I get to mess with people, and make up stories about ghosts. I just need a flash at the corner of my vision to set off my story. Maybe you can convince of the ghost and then the world would be fair.
Even if she does not believe you, she just might change her vocal tone, HA!
It is funny and horrible at once, but she just needs some good messin with.
Creaking floors are fun to me, cause I get to mess with people, and make up stories about ghosts. I just need a flash at the corner of my vision to set off my story. Maybe you can convince of the ghost and then the world would be fair.
Even if she does not believe you, she just might change her vocal tone, HA!
lols
my houses floors creaks & I dont mind but when I'm out its like "do they always creak? when everyone steps on them? oh s**t I broke the silence. Was that as loud as I thought it was? Am I supposed to avoid that spot? Is it just cuz I am so heavy and it doesnt creak at all when other people step there?" and so on and so forth
Hehehe it would be a bad stage for a ghost story, too bright. I cant even talk to her she is sooo "friendly" & bouncy but I'm pretty sure it's fake friendly & I have no idea what to say to her, I dont know who she is or what she is doing there. I have everybody else's context so I know how to talk to them, but I cant just walk up to her and say "why are you here?" all agitated like I want to.
HA! If you did, she would be so stunned, then she would be hurt, and confused, and that would definitely not work. Oh lament, le sigh, how do we ever manage with all the people who have no sense of how to just meld a little.
Last night, one of the gals I was hanging with, refused to believe I was intelligent and that everything I was saying was a joke. When the night closed, I am sure she liked me the so much less for. And she put my mojo completely off in every other respect.
Seeyah around babe, and happy painting ![]()
Last night, one of the gals I was hanging with, refused to believe I was intelligent and that everything I was saying was a joke. When the night closed, I am sure she liked me the so much less for. And she put my mojo completely off in every other respect.
Seeyah around babe, and happy painting
lols thank you for cheering me up
I think you're awesome (from what I have to go on at least)
I was volunteering at the gallery yesterday, painting and I wanted to play some music and I couldnt get the CD player to work & this girl who is new and NOT supposed to be there came bouncing down the stairs all "lalala" and saw me trying to make the radio work & I asked her if she could help me fix and she's all "oh give me a sec." and she turned her stupid IPod on and I HATE her Ipod, all her music is blues and soft college "rock" ,even tho it was totally obvious I was trying to play my own music & then she went bouncing back upstairs like nothing & ugh, she makes my eyes hurt, everything about her f**k f**k f**k she is UGLY and annoying and giddy/hyper and makes jokes & flirts like it is nothing at all.
And she was there again today!
I started to cry over that stupid radio
but I had to wipe it off and go back upstairs like it's nothing & I cant keep faking today.
I am so tired.
Yes. You could use some music. If you don't fix it, how are you going to decrease your anxiety? Your build up of anxiety has stage a level 1 meltdown.
Annoying girl? Yes. I know the feeling. You like to be yourself in your space.
Annoying girl? Yes. I know the feeling. You like to be yourself in your space.
Yesh, it is like having my house invaded by hornets! Where did she come from? Why is she still here? Cant she just GO already? and her noise is annoying.
I am going to buy a CD player...
