Have you ever lost faith in yourself?

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It happened to me, gradually from like the age of 15 till like 22. I can't remember the point where I actually felt at rock bottom. But I was depressed, had no job, no love life, hardly saw friends and had no confidence in the sport I was playing. If anyone else has go to that stage. Its a good time to take a step back and copletely analyze your situation. Are you on medication if your suffering from depression, paranoia or anxiety? Is it the right medication? I know from experience its not worth the side affects if the meds are not making hardly any difference. Find out what your strengths and interests are. Maybe find some new hobbies based on those. Or go back to something you've done in the past, and were good at. I think getting a job that makes me feel needed and appreciated helps a lot. Instead of making mistakes and getting down about it, while working in the building trade or some crappy factory.

Now i'm not saying I am fixed, by any means! Maybe getting diagnosed in 2007 was the turning point. But i'm not gonna work against my condition, i'll work around or with it, if possible. I think we all have the potential to make a difference in life. So whats the harm in trying?

Even if you lose faith in humanity as I have, never lose faith in yourself.

That's how I see it.

Yeah true. I've lost quite a bit of faith in humanity. But feel more positive about myself, than I have done in the past.

Yes, I've definitely lost faith in myself. I have "severe" depression and because of recent events in my life I've felt very lost and hopeless, feeling like I will never improve my life or go anywhere. I don't know that the new-found possibility that I have AS has made this any better or easier for me.

I don't think I've ever had faith in myself... so it's impossible for me to lose it.

Seriously, it's difficult for me to define 'faith in myself' and apply it to myself.

I either succeed or fail, faith has nothing to do with it.

What are the recent events? Maybe finding out about the AS can be the start of something. Like I said, if you feel like your at rock bottom, the only way is up. So don't give in.

I guess thats a good way to look at it. Takes the pressure off certain things

Many times from childhood on. Alot of things that happened me to convinced me there was no point to life. I never understood what I did that was so bad or wrong, things just happened to me.

When you feel the world has shut you out, which I had at one time, you just give up. I also for many times had manipulative parents and siblings to deal with, but since I'm away from them now, it isn't so bad. I actually feel like there might be hope.

I lose faith in myself very frequently, but I still persevere on auto-pilot.

Even so, I seriously need to work on the having faith in myself thing. I guess it's something that comes with life experience for alot of people. Meh, time will tell.

I don't think I have ever had a hold on faith. Everything is a disappointment in my eyes. When I'm not letdown completely. These are my good days.

You go to McDonalds. You order a double cheeseburger. No pickles. You get your food. You start eating. Turns out the person that took your order thought that you would enjoy your food much more if it did in fact have pickles. I hate pickles.

You meet people. They preach about themselves. What they stand for. Who they are. As if nothing can knock down their tower of complacency. They picture their lives as perfect. Smiling when they are frowning inside. Lying when the truth better suits.

The world is a constant letdown.

There is always hope

Yep, it does come with experience. We have to learn from the dissapointments and mistakes.

Just an example yeah? McDonalds isn't really everything to you is it?

Yeah, there are loads of people like that, who kid themselves. I don't do that though, I try to be honest to others as well as to myself.

I'm hoping it can be! I just e-mailed a therapist specializing in spectrum disorders (and he has an Aspie son himself) so hopefully that will bring good things.

Well, my parents have been trying to throw me out. They swear I have Borderline Personality Disorder (which I definitely do NOT), partially, I suppose, because they are in extreme denial about me actually being transgender (female-to-male, and I've got a goatee and sideburns...come on now!). If they do throw me out I cannot afford to live around here at all, and it's not like I have friends who can take me in. My parents also absolutely refuse to take into consideration anything I may say about myself; they assume everything is part of an obsession. Including me being trans. And so rather than learn anything about AS, they mock me for saying I may have it.

I'm not done with college, which is its own catastrophe, and I would have to work constantly to survive--but can I get a decent job that pays enough to support myself without an education? Let alone one that pays enough to let me save up for an education later, etc. (Right now I'm toying with switching to trade school and I have literally days to make up my mind.)

And I'm petrified of having to give up Taekwon-Do, which is not only one of my obsessions/special interests, but the one thing that keeps me going. It has given me one of the closest friendships I've ever had, and without this person in my life, I would never have developed the social skills I've managed, and I just can't let that go right now.

And notice, this all involves change. I've never lived anywhere else in my life and that scares me even more. I'm not ready to be independent, mentally, financially...

Yeah, that sounds promising!

Hmm, sorry your parents are being this way. I gather you've told them you couldn't cope if you had to move out right now? Have you been diagnoses with AS? Well maybe the first thing is to look for work. I know how hard that can be though!

Hopefully you won't have to give the Taekwon-Do up. Even if you had to, you can still practice, and see the person right?