I walk alone

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I have a beautiful girlfriend, and friends who care about me.

But despite all that, I don't really think anyone totally understands me or "gets" me. I think my girlfriend APPRECIATES me and how special I am, but I don't think she totally "gets" me. Don't get me wrong, though, I love her more than anything, and couldn't be happier to be with her.

Anyone else think the same about "being alone", though?

Sure I understand. Thats probably the reason why I am so isolated, and never open up to anyone. I rather be alone with myself, than be alone with others.

I am sure there are many of us that feel this way.I always thought that it is not defined by how many people you have around you.That is irrevelavent because it seems to be a state of mind.A feeling that is always there.

In a sense we we all walk alone. Our inner most private being is just that - inner and private. The most we can share with others is the manifestation of their external behavior. We can see them, touch their outer physical pats, hear them, smell them, talk with them, laugh with them, cry with them, but we cannot be them or plumb their innermost depth.

I would recommend that you rejoice in the portion of others that is accessible to you.

ruveyn

That's good you have those people in your life. It's a lot more than many of us have.
I think you should follow the recommendation of ruveyn and rejoice in these people and the place they occupy in your life. It's a real gift.
I do understand what you mean about "being alone".

Even when I did have relationships in my life, I never felt truly connected with other people.
The perpetual misunderstandings and turbulence seemed to confirm this idea.
The sense of being an "island", I guess.

What I am discovering lately is that for me, having Asperger's meant that there was a fundamental disruption in the whole "getting" process that people in relationships go through. Neurological differences prevent me from correctly reading emotions, interpreting actions, and constructing the empathetic bond that is the basis for healthy adult relationships. Other people always left me, frustrated and angry at what an insensitive jerk I was. I was always baffled and confused, thinking that I had been the perfect partner or friend.

So yes, I totally understand what you mean by "being alone".