I always checked. In fact, I decided early on that I would rather be devoured by a monster than live in fear of one that wasn't there. Oddly, I was always disappointed that I couldn't find one to gobble me up. It would have made me quite happy. After all, if there could be invisible monsters, which were obviously objects of fantasy generated by my surely overactive imagination, then there could be ghosts, which fall into exactly the same category. If I could be a ghost, then I wouldn't have to be bothered so much by the banal matters of the living. Even though I am atheistical (now, at least) in the most intellectually hackneyed and metaphysically vapid manner that one can be atheistical (always having been emphatically more "humanist" than "secular"), a small part of my mind is still holding out for some conveniently hungry monster to come send me into an eternity of untroubled, monkish ghosthood. Even "good" sex is just as banal, dull, insipid, stupid, wasteful, mind-numbing, and utterly overrated as I always thought it would be (I would have made an annoying Christian), and even so it intrudes rudely and unpleasantly into significantly more entertaining thoughts. In fact, I have discovered very little to like about the physical aspects of my existence even though good hygeine and adequate nutrition have helped make it more comfortable (therefore easier to ignore), and I feel quite a bit of pity for those who seem to be limited to it. The real problem with monsters under the bed, then, is that they always stand you up.