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Is there anyone here who hasn't been officially diagnosed and don't believe that they might have AS but just joined this community because they feel they don't quite belong anywhere? I haven't been dxed officially, just took the Aspie quiz and according to that, am very likely to be an Aspie. Feel free to insult me.....

is that your case? you don't believe that you might have AS but joined this community because you felt you didn't quite belong anywhere?

When I started posting, I really had no idea if I had AS. I quickly learned that, for me, it didn't matter too much. I can relate to a lot of what people say here, people are very welcoming and accepting (and really I have yet to be insulted).

This is possibly going to sound strange, but I feel sort of guilty that I haven't suffered as much as many people here. Consequently, I feel like I am somehow not "entitled" to call myself an undiagnosed Aspie. Maybe, after all, I've just convinced myself that I fall on the spectrum and in reality it's not true.

When I came here, however, and started reading / researching / obsessing, I really had one of those "I know this is me" moments. Suddenly the quirkiness of my entire childhood was explained. I could still be totally off on this one and just blinded by my eagerness to suddenly embrace an explanation, but somehow I think it goes beyond that.

So... welcome! May you find what you seek.

You may simply be a whiter shade of pale than us.

This pretty much says exactly what I would have said myself.

Welcome to WP!

I don't just mean me. There are a lot of members out there who haven't been dxed by anyone but themselves including me. Yeah if I have AS, it's high functioning so I do feel a bit guilty.

You shouldn't. Everyone deals with the cards life gave them, and you have no control over others or indeed your own.

At any rate, we love anyone who is not a flamer to post here. Everyone, regardless of their brain status ( ) has their own unique life experiences to share and interesting opinions to voice.

Well written!

I don't know where I fit either. I seem to be considered strange by EVERYONE... in fact today around my new coworkers I asked if they thought I was strange and they said yes. I have some aspie traits like severe childhood meltdowns, bad social skills (I was in a special class in school where they tried to control my meltdowns and improve social skills) and very obsessive interests, but on the other hand I have normal feelings and can read faces pretty well. I am considered to have a mental illness, but I don't seem to feel at home with those communities either.

The psychiatrist isn't sure exactly what my disorder is.

How can someone consider you to have a mental illness yet they can't diagnose you with anything? That seems a bit screwed up.

Do you feel like you have a mental illness? Maybe you've just adapted really well.

Some doctors can be such lazy, uncaring buggers. That's where Dr Google comes in. And why there are armies of self- diagnosed "patients" lurking on the net. Have you sought a second opinion?

I don't think I really belong anywhere.

I was informally assessed AS at a young age.

I've never had a formal diagnosis, and lots are against my being labeled.
There's lots of controversy.
This is why I'm not sure about AS.

Certainly when I was labeled, people told me and my family very little about it.
All the information we received was negative, ambiguous and not very constructive.

I relate to a lot of people's difficulties on here, but for me, having a label all those years ago just exacerbated any social issues I was having.

So I'm kind of in a diagnostic no-man's land, where I've denied AS and had most of the records removed, but not all.

I've been confused for years as to why something that has no proper physical test was used to control my life.
Kind of frightening really.

Some doctors can be such lazy, uncaring buggers. That's where Dr Google comes in. And why there are armies of self- diagnosed "patients" lurking on the net. Have you sought a second opinion?[/quote\]

I had a psychotic episode a couple of times under lots of stress, but I am not as severe as the people on those boards and don't relate well. I am dxed with Schizoaffective but they are not sure... I am missing a lot of symptoms of schizophrenia, I think I'm some sort of Bipolar only, especially since I mostly had grandiose delusions and severe mood disturbances, but even if I am I am atypical bipolar or something like that. My meds are typical for bipolar.

My childhood episodes could have been childhood bipolar, but I'm not for sure.

Basically, there are some that think I'm a clear aspie, and others that say I am not. My psychiatrist and therapist said at separate times I was Bill Gates-like, and my therapist thought I was aspie maybe.

But others say my conversation skills are too good to be aspie, but the truth is I had to learn to have a conversation. People say I also fail socially still but I am not sure what I am doing wrong, or why others keep seeing me as "weird"