Were you bullied in school?

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I was abused nearly every day. Informally voted the "weirdest," the 'ugliest' and the "girl you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole."in my [large] high school. I remember I would check out books from the school library on how to have friends. The books were from the 1950's[old even then] and talked about being kind, caring, polite, etc. Well, I was ALL of those things. I could not figure out what was wrong with me.
A couple of months after graduating high school I read a book [ I am too emberrassed to give the title] that helped me see how important shallowness is to most people. I went to a park to study how "normal" people behaved. It was there that I met my first boyfriend, a svengali type who taught me how to dress, do my makeup and hair etc. With his connections he got me a job as a bunny checking coats at the Playboy club in DenIver Colorado.
I worked there for 3 weeks. You are almost all so much younger than I am, and therefore will most likely not recognize the names of the celebrities I met. Carol Channing, who said I was delightful and sweet. Dean Martin, Sonny and Cher, and Sammy davis Jr. who said that I was like a doll that he wanted to put in his pocket and take home.
I was floored that in a matter of months I went from 'the ugly weird cow that "no one would touch with a ten foot pole," to the young woman that celebrities were entranced by.[ they couldn't figure out how I could come across so innocent. Ummmm, I WAS innocent, lol]
It felt crazy at the time, and still, 40 years later, it still seems crazy. I am still incredulous at the worship of pretentiousness and lack of appreciation for decency of character by so many NT's.
Craziness on my part? The only thing I have ever stolen in my life was that uniform, down to the cuffs and tail, when I quit that job. I had my picture taken wearing my uniform[and my spackle like makeup, false eyelashes, my fall which was similar to todays clip on hair extensions.]and sent copies to the addresses of some of the cruelest of the torturers I had attended school with. Some of the guys had the gal to actually ask me out[what the heck happened to the ten foot poles?]
I don't know why I chose to share that story in one of my first posts. Maybe because after all these years it still makes no sense. i'm not sure. I know I will NEVER understand why people can be so cruel for no good reason and then later have their tongues hanging out of their heads for just as ridiculous of reasons.

I was bullied moderately to badly in elementary school, middle school and the first year of high school. I eventually became somewhat of a bully myself and took to violence and even minor crime. I stopped the whole mess one day in high school when I refused to fight back during an altercation, and turned myself in to the dean, resulting in being expelled for a day, then on probation for the rest of the school year. Nonetheless, I am scarred to this day.