AliceinOz wrote:
I often have dreams where I am the driver of a car and my view is through the windscreen.
I've had very similar dreams (just had one the other night, in fact) where I'm driving. Only difference is, the windshield is usually partially obscured, like I'm driving in a rainstorm and the wipers aren't working. I try my best to stay on the highway and avoid other cars -- and for some reason I usually succeed -- but it's always a nerve-wracking experience.
A few other themes that seem to recur on a regular basis:
The New Job
I work in the architecture business, and my first job with an architecture was with a large, prominent firm in Chicago that does a lot of interesting design work. I have good memories of working there, but I ended up leaving the firm on bad terms.
I sometimes dream that I've just been re-hired by that same firm, and it's my first day back. (Oddly, their office always looks different in each dream, and never resembles their actual office, but I always know I'm at that particular firm.) I'm given a task to do that's supposed to be done by the end of the day, but end up spending the whole day goofing off or spacing out. I then have a panic attack when I suddenly remember that this task is supposed to be due any minute... That's usually when I wake up.
Flying
The old standby. I don't have these dreams much anymore, but I had them more often when I was younger. It's usually more like floating than flying, and I have to pump my arms to stay airborne. Problem is, I sometimes go too high, and I'm freaking out because I'm afraid I'll start falling. And sometimes I do.
Abandonment
I don't have this dream very often, but it's always very emotional whenever I do. In the dream, I'll meet somebody who becomes my new best friend or lover. I finally feel complete for the first time, and we have a great time together, as if we were always meant to be with each other. Then, I'll turn my back for a split-second, and when I turn back around, my companion has vanished as if she never existed. The sense of being rejected or abandoned is always incredibly intense.
Physical Suffering and Dismemberment
My worst nightmares are usually in the form of me watching somebody else endure unspeakable suffering, or being dismembered while still alive. Oddly, these dreams almost never involve me personally undergoing any physical harm, but watching others suffer. It always starts as if I'm watching it in a movie, but then I soon find myself "inside" the movie and part of the action. In one particularly vivid example, I was looking at a severed head laying on a counter in some sort of medical facility, being kept alive with a bunch of hoses and tubes attached to its neck. Of course, it was unable to speak, and there was no hope of it ever being re-attached to its body. So it just laid there on its side, looking at me while the machines kept it alive. That freaked me out in a major way, and I woke up in a panic.
Taking a Leak
Sometimes I find myself in a strange bathroom, usually a public restroom but not always. It's a different one each time, and I end up standing in front of a toilet trying to take a leak. I try and try, but nothing relieves the urge. Usually at this point I wake up, and discover that I really
do need to take a leak in a major way, and make haste to the bathroom!
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