I came to my realization that I am likely on the Autism Spectrum in my 30's after working in the field with children. For me, to obtain a diagnosis is not necessary and I really don't have the money for that. I have to admit that I went through the stupid "grief cycle" for awhile and now I'm feeling a bit better. Oh, wow, that's what it is, huh? I really went through some of my worst sib's during the "anger" and depression phases. But I'm not sure what to call my recent funk- I've been numb and although I've been functioning at work, I'm in survival mode in other areas of my life. Unfortunately, I've stopped doing most things that I used to enjoy that were productive. Instead, I surf the internet aimlessly. I'm having to remind myself that the advice I dole out to parents works for my situation, too. The obsessive interests I need to keep are the ones that are positive and productive, not the ones that take me farther from the world.
07 Feb 2010, 6:45 pm
