does anyone else with a.s. feel that life has been a waste?

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03 Dec 2019, 11:29 pm

Life is tough and sleep is one of the best parts of it. The only people who might prefer waking life are probably mainly children (ones groeing up without abuse and not in war torn areas) and evil people like aforementioned nasty arms dealers, disingenuous lawyers, degenerate politicians, etc.--and their families who might benefit greatly from being related.



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03 Dec 2019, 11:56 pm

blooiejagwa wrote:
Life is tough and sleep is one of the best parts of it. The only people who might prefer waking life are probably mainly children (ones groeing up without abuse and not in war torn areas) and evil people like aforementioned nasty arms dealers, disingenuous lawyers, degenerate politicians, etc.--and their families who might benefit greatly from being related.


Big Smiles .. sincerely thought no one would undertand . What i had written...
Some very Oddly absolutely amazing people on here. :) this has turned out to be a very enlightening thread to follow. :idea: and apparently very enlightened people responding .


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04 Dec 2019, 12:00 am

Jakki wrote:
auntblabby wrote:
Jakki wrote:
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you and i and the rest of us here, are all taking the road less traveled, and in the end we will be better for it.


Ty AuntBlabby ,, but , me thinks i missed a turn off somewhere ... :!: :wink: :wall:

that is only natural to feel we jumped into the wrong lifetimes. it is like taking the polar bear plunge, we're saying to ourselves as we suffer, "what fresh hell is this?!" but when we climb back up out of the water into the warmth of heaven, we're glad we got it out of the way and don't have to do it anymore. it is like what ted turner said about how "life is kind of like a b-grade movie, in that while we wouldn't walk out before the end of it, neither again would we wish to see it again."


Wait ......? Uhm .. heaven .. please , what is it your identifying as heaven ?Life is at its best nowadays when . I am asleep . At least can know from lucid dreaming training ., what is the nightmare and what is real. Soorry . Prolly not the most encouraging person at this time.

my clumsy analogy or metaphor was that being plunged suddenly into the icy winter water is akin to incarnation into this hellworld, and getting out into the warmth again is analogous to matriculating into heaven. before we incarnated, heaven is awakeness, and earth is the dream, but when we are incarnate, it is immersion into a dream with heaven being the awake state that is kept beyond our reach until our time. i hope that made a bit better sense. :study:



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08 Dec 2019, 9:35 am

Had held ontohopes things wouuld be different when , i grew up .aside from a few years ..
Literally .. the consequences of having lived those few years .. in retrospect cost me..
Very badly .. and am not being silly here. Inspite of being told was angel those few years and fighting chronic illness at the same time , Not asd ! If that person , had been married to all those years might still be amongst us..People that targeting me , had not taken his life . To try to get control over me.
And my assets ., so stupid . Only owned a few acres of dirt and a mobile home.worked hard for, And this wonderful relationship . But they had nothing. By gaslighting the authorities and myself , but , my gullibility level had gone away sometime before that. But judicial system there and law enforcement were so fooled by these people . They literally could Not , see the facts . Even firing the victims advocate for court ,that proved the facts. So am holding these and worse memories . So , may reverse this question ?" Has life been a waste ..? " Might never had met this twice decorated airforce veteran . Woulda been merciful if they had killed me instead,but they woulda lost control
Of stuff around me. Was all in my name and they planned on my being stupid.
He Had been raised good christian ,( for , what we both considered that , possibly non advantageous :| ) ,even graduated at a military school . He had contracted a illness,morgellons disease , otherwise very healthy. And we had happiness most all of the time. was this LIFE a waste , is it


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10 Jan 2020, 9:24 pm

DorkyNerd wrote:
This is not "extreme."

This is common sense. You'd want your child to have no social life? No real friends, no SO, bad relationships with family?

He will be at the bottom of the pecking order in high school. He'll be bullied, isolated and lonely. Kids will snitch on him to the teacher to make trouble for him. They'll be rude to him and ignore him. Play nasty tricks on him. He will never get invited to parties. He'll be humiliated and rejected a lot in life. He will assume people like him and not realize that they are just being polite to him.

If he does find a woman, she'll be either a con artist or completely mentally ill or autistic herself- or all three at once!!


If he gets really lucky he can ruin his 20s and most off himself to try to build a business someone cons him into, get friends who are cons and mentally ill with drug issues and like to be abusive, then add a girlfriend who's all three(trying to figure her out was where I finally started to understand me) and get well and truly utterly f****d. But yeah, I kinda relate. So did my mum a lot of the time. It gets easier to realize you're a regret with time though. Lol.



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10 Jan 2020, 9:48 pm

Ghostofduck wrote:
DorkyNerd wrote:
This is not "extreme."

This is common sense. You'd want your child to have no social life? No real friends, no SO, bad relationships with family?

He will be at the bottom of the pecking order in high school. He'll be bullied, isolated and lonely. Kids will snitch on him to the teacher to make trouble for him. They'll be rude to him and ignore him. Play nasty tricks on him. He will never get invited to parties. He'll be humiliated and rejected a lot in life. He will assume people like him and not realize that they are just being polite to him.

If he does find a woman, she'll be either a con artist or completely mentally ill or autistic herself- or all three at once!!


If he gets really lucky he can ruin his 20s and most off himself to try to build a business someone cons him into, get friends who are cons and mentally ill with drug issues and like to be abusive, then add a girlfriend who's all three(trying to figure her out was where I finally started to understand me) and get well and truly utterly f****d. But yeah, I kinda relate. So did my mum a lot of the time. It gets easier to realize you're a regret with time though. Lol.

Yes can easily understand the disillusionment....and recognize it as well.
In reality you prolly did best , possibly could expect under the circumstances.
Rest assured that most of the stuff outside you , is just that !
And not knowing why... it is what it is , and as it appears to me. It's the worlds messed up issues.. And you cannot be responsible for all the rest of them ..
( just you)


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