Three more days until the anti-depressant appointment and I’m super nervous. The thing about clothing size and me is that I’ve been constantly criticized about my size before and I hope that the doctor will understand that because this whole beauty comes from inside philosophy is bull. When I met my most recent ex boyfriend the first things I noticed were his eyes, hair and skin. I didn’t give a rat’s arse about his personality because I didn’t get to know him until later. That’s how physical attraction works like it or not. Makeup exists for a good reason.
When I bend over my stomach doesn’t hang out as much as it used to possibly because of my new diet. Some would deem my diet unhealthy, but it’s my body. They can’t tell me how to treat it. I’d rather eat very little and maintain or lose in clothing size than eat like a teenage boy and use everything in moderation as an excuse to eat unhealthy foods.
I feel bad for any teenage girl being taught the "you're beautiful no matter how much you weigh" philosophy.
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“There’s a lesson that we learn
In the pages that we burn
It’s written in the ashes of the fire below”
-Down, The Birthday Massacre
16 Mar 2015, 5:01 pm
