kx250rider wrote:
I am afraid of such tight places as crawling under cars, or going in the space under raised-floor buildings ... a fear of it falling on me and killing. I tried to conquer that fear by crawling under a mobile home ...
I'll reach under places, but not crawl in...
If I were to be worried about handling the MRI, I'd take a really good look at the machine, and form an understanding of how it's shaped, and how it's assembled. Ask what happens if the power fails, and know that they can slide the table out if needed by hand, etc. Knowledge is power, and that might help!
I think there is much in what you say here, and I do hope to learn something about that machine this afternoon and/or tomorrow ... but I think the biggest problem for me here is largely a matter of "escape control". For example: I can slide under a vehicle that is properly supported, and part of the reason I can do that is because I know I have an immediate and wide-open escape that is
not dependent upon anyone else being involved. In contrast, however, and like with the mobile home you have mentioned, the fear of a "complicated escape" that could/might go wrong while crawling around or under or over things in order to get back to an exit is a big one ... and in the case of the MRI, I would likely be dependent upon someone else to get/let me out, and that was the situation in my first experience with claustrophobia about 30 years ago where my escape had to be temporarily blocked by a co-worker while he and I were working together in a specific machinery-maintenance situation.
I am presently trying to psych myself into a logical place where I simply remember many people before me have survived the experience, and my current blood pressure of 158/84 (with a pulse of 68) indicates I still have a little "wiggle room" before the stress and anxiety overwhelm me.
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