Hey All,
My problem is like many, in that I'm a picky eater. On the one hand, this is proven fortunate, as I avoid a lot of unhealthy foods, and I've even had a caffeinated drink, let alone gotten addicted to coffee or soda.
But there are good things too I can't manage to eat. Most fruits for one, nearly all veggies for another. I'm trying new things, but I just can't keep it down...the food makes me gag and ruins my appetite, and I wind up just feeling ashamed and hating myself for just not being a goddamn normal person instead of this weirdo freak who can't eat veggies.
It's become a growing problem because I fear any social occasion where there is a meal, because I have no options as to what I can eat, and I get dreadfully self conscious when I cannot eat what is served me. I stayed with friends on a trip once, and one of them cooked for us, and I just couldn't put down more than a few spoonfuls before I started getting sick to my stomach. So now every time I get invited to a dinner party it causes me anxiety and I try to avoid the situation, which just isolates me further.
I've gotten to where I have an almost compulsive need to eat alone, because I feel so ashamed of my limited palette. I'll make up some excuse, and then eat later when I'm alone in my apartment and I'm safe to have that grilled cheese and soup, or chicken and applesauce.
What can I do? How can I overcome my diet? How can I be FREAKING NORMAL? I swear, if I could give up everything that made me special, if I could be utterly mundane and average, but be NORMAL with normal tastes and normal interests, I'd do it in a heartbeat.