UndercoverAlien wrote:
its terrible hard for me to ask...
This time you really need to.
If it helps, you could write a "therapy letter" (to yourself, with no intention of actually giving it to the person). "Dear Mom," or "Dear Doctor..."
Write down your symptoms to the best of your ability.
Dates, changes, whatever you can think of that might be important.
Does it happen more often during or after certain situations?
Nutrition/sleep patterns?
Write it in your own language first, complete with weirdo phrases and cussing, whatever helps to get your mind on the subject. Then, when it's all clear in your own mind, figure out how to translate.