Trivial Reasons for Suicidal Ideation?

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Has anyone here had a strong desire to commit suicide or self harm for something that, in retrospect, was really stupid and trivial? Like, for example, getting a bad mark on a test or something?

*Raises hand*

My suicidal ideations usually came about when I got to a point where it seems I was just going around in circles and not accomplishing anything.

Yes, I'm dealing with exactly the same right now.

Yeah.
If that happens to me, it's usually a sign of prolonged stress or depression, and the seemingly trivial thing was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

Deep depression self hatred and loss of sense of self worth.At least how it is for me.Also when I have a bad meltdown just because I had a bad day or I failed a test that I studied hard and tried my best.

All of the above!

The point is that at the time it doesn't seem trivial. I have a habit, of blowing things out of proportion. For example, I failed my test, so I won't get into university, which means I won't get a good job, which means I won't have any money, which means I won't be able to live how I'd like to...so what's the point in living.

Dealing with SI and/or depression is tough and the problem is unless someone's been there they have no idea what it's like.

Some people like me, their whole life plan revolves around killing themselves. That's always what my plan was ever since I was about 14. I've just never gotten around to it.

I think its the other way around, some people like me have trivial reasons for not killing themselves. Another youtube video, One more sandwich, oh I want to see that new Star Trek movie I'll stick around till then.

I'm a lot like wcoltd, apparently. My current plan is May, since my family convinced me to wait until then. And will I manage to do it then? My history doesn't make me hopeful, but I'm tired of putting it off.

It had happen to me. It was last year, when i got my worst grades from school. It's been for 6 years and every single year my grades are lower and lower. This year somehow managed to keep it to the same level as last year, I hope I'll find motivation to finally move them up. Anyway, not only the school i also "lost" all my friends. In macedonia (country where i came from) people tend to organize in groups and together spend the night, and special occasions like New Year and Christmas. The same year i was rejected from the group, and started thinking about me, Why I'm alone, how could i go through all these years and don't notice that i don't really have friends. Also, I'm a little more into computers and one day while playing with school computers i managed to find a way to get and be able to see all the passwords from all the school computers. The kids, professors i had access to everything. I wasn't going to do anything with it since I'm doing it for fun only, but thanks to one of my schoolmates everyone find out about what i did in only 12 hours. The next day i went to school it was like hell, and it was about to get worse. When professors find out, they called my parents, talked to them. No one asked me what i did, did i do such thing. I offered myself to talk to them to explain everything but they ignored me. They kept asking me, What's wrong with you? What happen with you? From fives(aces) i went straight to the bottom, with no desire to live, no desire to do anything. I thought and even today I'm still thinking about it. I'll probably wont to it because i find it possible to sit on the bed and stare at the celling for a few hours, fighting with everything in my mind until i become tired and go to sleep. I started working online to earn something, working hours and hours for little as $15 per day just to keep me busy and away from my thoughts. It worked at the beginning, got new high end laptop i always wanted but it become boring, i just canceled $100 worth orders just because I'm unmotivated and don't feel like i want to work. Pulled off all my serviced until i decide what to do next. But i don't give up, getting rest for a few days and hope I'll be in better shape.
Life isn't easy but i have to keep going, there are many things i would like to try, it's too early to give up...

Of course. That's how it works a lot of the time with depression. You get so caught in the fog that any minor inconvenience starts to look insurmountable. You just want to give up. On everything.

Think of this as a signal that your depression is getting worse. Red flag. Warning signal. Go to doctor. Get help. Start meds. If you're already on meds, ask pdoc to change them. Fight it. Goddamn depression will eat you alive if you let it.

Over a woman lol

Severe akathisia last week caused me to have suicidal ideations, even though it was transient.