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19 Nov 2023, 2:14 am

I'm glad you're here


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20 Nov 2023, 8:10 am

I think the only type of love I can tangibly feel is romantic. I'm not particularly attached to my family or friends (besides maybe my cat and dog), like I wouldn't care too much if they all died, but I will totally give my heart to someone I love and who loves me. It's weird.


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20 Nov 2023, 9:18 am

more than anything else i hate my life


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20 Nov 2023, 9:46 am

I had some stressful dreams last night and I woke up sweating a bit.


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20 Nov 2023, 10:36 am

I need to get my sh*t together


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20 Nov 2023, 10:56 am

s**t I only just remembered what I told my therapist today. f*****g hell that's just hit me like a brick in the face.

I'm so f*****g dissociative I was telling him things about me but as if it was someone else.

That's fcked up


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20 Nov 2023, 11:05 am

Does writing stuff down help you? I know that wouldn’t work when you are dissociating. It helps me sometimes, especially when I know that I might forget an important memory again.


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20 Nov 2023, 11:09 am

Yeah I do that sometimes. The trouble is is that when I read it back it's like it's about someone else and I have absolutely no connection to it.


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21 Nov 2023, 6:56 am

As a child I can't remember a time where I felt love from anyone or for anyone.

I think this had to have had an impact on my mental health...well in fact I know it did have.


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21 Nov 2023, 8:01 am

i wish i didn't have emotions


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21 Nov 2023, 11:23 am

I feel like a different person today. It's really weird, I keep smiling.


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21 Nov 2023, 11:54 am

I wonder if absolutely everything can ever be resolved


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22 Nov 2023, 11:11 am

I think I've been lost all my life and I just wanna go home


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23 Nov 2023, 7:01 am

Sometimes all you've got is the will to survive


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24 Nov 2023, 8:15 am

I don't think the darkness will ever go


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25 Nov 2023, 5:42 am

Recognising my emotions and being able to name them as I feel them has become something of an obsession for me.

Up to now I know what sad feels like. I didn't even think I would ever say that I am happy to feel sad.


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