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I have synesthesia. I don't really view it as a disorder or anything particularly useful in and of itself, it's just different.

id just like to note, reading these posts are very funny, i cant beeli9eve what im reading, and its very interseting.. yeah..

i think having AS isnt so bad, really, being able to think a lot more intelectually, compared to socially.. yeah it builds anxety in my AS for that fact, but i pick up on things WAY faster than anyone who isnt AS i think =) and it gets to be a ltitle too fast for most people i know, which ends up in me having to wait/waste my time waiting for the NT people to catch up lol

I missed that one. my bad. sorry. ^^"
Anyway, being sad without any known reason, being suicidal when your'e sad and making people around you sad because of you is no fun.

I missed that one. my bad. sorry. ^^"
Anyway, being sad without any known reason, being suicidal when your'e sad and making people around you sad because of you is no fun.

For a second there I wished I was bipolar to get away from my dysthymia.

Then I remembered a client who my boss had a while back.

He'd been "having a great day". He said he felt he "could do anything".

He ended up under a bus. We all assumed his mood had rapidly changed and he'd intentionally ended his life.

I later happened to come across his girlfriend who he'd been with. She recognized me because he didn't have a car so she would bring him to his appointments. We started talking and she brough him up. I said it was a shame, he seemed like he was happy earlier but oh, well, I guess how that's how things go for bipolar folks.

Actually, he was still in a good mood. He'd told his girlfriend (who'd crossed the street before him) that he could "make the light".

I discussed this with my boss and here's what we think happened:

His sense of self was so inflated he though he could run faster than the cars and wasn't at risk for getting hurt.



I guess what I'm saying is this story does add a perk to depression: Depressives rarely "commit suicide" on accident. Also, if you've ever read the Darwin awards with a more critical eye, you'll find that depressives, while loudly represented are under-represented compared to their manic counterparts. I love awards but I think I can pass on that one.

Sometimes I wish I was a narcissist because at least then I'd like myself.

Anyway I have to say that this thread is a little bit ridiculous. I don't get why anyone would want another mental illness. & for all of you wanting Bipolar to take a break from depression...look forward to spending your life savings on junk you don't need, getting so angry that you wind up in a police cell and then crashing back down, realizing what you've done and wanting to throw yourself off a bridge. It's no break.

Thanks Brittany. I can't remember how many times I've been arrested and ended up in cells. And of course this then causes problems when you're applying for work... try explaining your arrest record when your CRB comes back with multiple "assault PC" on it.

That's why I wished for Bipolar II - Only feeling awesome, without psychotic mania.

I already planned a suicide plan 3 times, meant to do it, but gave up while hating myself by realizing I'll get caught/will have to break up with my BF.
My sense of self coudn't possibly get any worse. I deluzed myself as not being able to do anything that requires an IQ of above 50 yesterday, and it happens to me every few days. My IQ is about 130.

I don't see why anyone would want to have any disorder.

To make life with an existing disorder easier.

Actually, having read your posts, I can see why you think it would be a break to suffer from something other than pure depression. But it would simply complicate your life beyond measure.

How much help do you have in the real world for your depression?

Comorbidity does not make a disorder easier to deal with or there would not be the word "morbid" in it.

[quote="Brittany2907"]Sometimes I wish I was a narcissist because at least then I'd like myself.

Actually narcissists don't like themselfs, at least not always. They seem, from my experience, to have a desperately fragile ego. Needing, therefore, to have the world constantly mirror that they are liked, admired etc. otherwise their mood and self-esteem come crashing down.

I just got some SSRI meds & a psychologist. About 2 weeks ago.

Give me the NT-syndrome that'll compensate a bit for ASS.
I then will get on with the remaining comorbiditys

Vivid memories of painful and traumatic things is typical of human memory in general. It's an evolutionary imperative for our brains to vividly recall things that us hurt. But it can be heighten if you have a pre-existing anxiety disorder, like PTSD, or if the experience was traumatic enough to induce PTSD.

I have PTSD, so I know what I'm talking about here.

I also have eidetic or "photographic" memory. Eidetic memory isn't about having good long-term memory--these are two different things. Actually my long-term memory kind of sucks, like most people with eidetic memory. Eidetic memory is about how you brain intakes information in abundant amounts at one time and arranges it in your short-term memory in a more linear way than other people, so you can recall it back in a seemingly "photographic" way. But the amount that gets stores into long-term memory after that is about the same as any person without eidetic memory.

Lots of people can remember childhood experiences like cartoons in relatively precise details--I am not one of them. Because of eidetic memory, my brain is constantly trying to take in more information than it can store long-term, and consequently, as newer memories are formed, I can lose older ones, unless I make an effort to retain those memories. Much of my memories of childhood are a vague blur now, while my brother who doesn't have eidetic memory can still readily recall things like cartoons and TV shows both he and I watched regularly as kids. Yet give me a map and I can look at it a few minutes and be able to redraw it quite accurately for a short time afterward. But after about an 1 hour, especially if I'm doing other things, my detailed memory of the map will fade rapidly.

To be truthful, eidetic memory is kind of useless. It helped me a lot in school because I could cram a hour before a test and then ace the test, but in the "real" life it's more of a nuisance than anything. And that it contributes to the degradation of my long term memories doesn't help.