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I finally am beginning to accept that I'm depressed. I think I've been trying to deny it and not acknowledge it. I also as much as it kind of pains me realize that I truly need to be on medication. Despite the side effects I think I need it to function and probably need to be on a higher dose. I keep thinking "Is Depression related to a chemical imbalance?" A part of me dosen't quite know the answer to that but I have to believe it plays a part. So many members of my family battle anxiety and depression. I don't see it as coincidental and there has to be some genetic component involved which probably controls neurotransmitters.

I sometimes fought back against the idea of a biological explanation and thought "Is it circumstantial?" Is my circumstances driving it? I am thinking maybe it's a combination of things and it's more nuanced then it seems. Sometimes I get thoughts in my head that say "What did people do before antidepressants?" They managed to do without it. Maybe what I don't realize is that many people suffered in silence during that time.

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There's a fossil record of the depression slaves in blues songs that started around the 1860s. They certainly didn't suffer in silence, and their depression was mostly circumstantial as evidenced by the lyrics, e.g. "Born under a bad sign/I've been down since I began to crawl/if it wasn't for bad luck/I wouldn't have no luck at all." No pills for them, and their only hope of a cure was emancipation, which they still don't quite have. I suppose expressing the angst so graphically was pretty much the only thing that kept a lot of them going. I'm a great believer in expressing pain and angst as a kind of therapy, which is why I practise it so often. I'm lucky enough to be reasonably non-miserable, as judged by self-assessment.

I'm not a great believer in medication for depression, though I allow that in severe cases where all else has failed it's probably the only thing for it. I'm more prone to anxiety than depression myself. My mother was also highly-strung and frequently complained of being "sick of whittling away her soul-case" as she so eloquently put it. It may have contributed to her early-ish death from a brain stroke. So I have to be careful.

I think for both anxiety and depression it's good if the one affected strives to look after themselves. I think it helps avoid low feelings if the subject has interesting things to do that are neither too hard or too easy, and like I suggested above, expressing it is therapeutic, especially when the subject feels they're being listened to with empathy.

I'm finally back on normal mood again, after I had solid feel down on Tuesday. I felt soo miserable, tho literally nothing happened.

I think it may be severing mood swing, and that I have for some time (2-3 years?) already. Till now I dismissed 'em as normal mood changes, but it's not normal to feel that depressed out of nowhere.

Likely I must consult a psychiatrist, I'm afraid one day it may go too far. And I don't want to hurt myself.

I still mourn of what could have been.

And it doesn't even involved something complicated, really.
It was just that fricking simple.

So, so stupid simple, really, had someone dug harder or listened firmer than carry through their usual common assumptions.


Can one regret powerlessness?
Not the one being at fault for things, just that the inability to be able to take action for things all because everyone around me is that incompetent.

That my own worldview that people are unreliable had been stronger than ever.

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Aw sorry Edna

Bipolar sounds like a redundant term. For something to be polar, it has to have two ends. Unipolar depression is just depression with magnitudes of severity. It's not polar at all. Tripolar wouldn't make sense except in space alien math. We need to tell the APA that this madness has to end.

APA! If you can hear us, stop calling it bipolar. It's redundant and unnecessarily repeats itself.

I used to avoid remembering things about myself from when I was a child but I'm starting to allow myself a little bit now

It feels weird and scary

Using natural type of supplements and some things that are closer to natural .. Your body should, or my experience
is that it absorbs the supplements more easily , And even though the side effects of those amino acids . Can cause a more plentiful supply of seratonin for the brain/ body to use to fight depressive effects . And supercharge ,to some degree your own bodies resistance to stress.. Often allowing people to get into a much more restful state. The idea of interfering with the brain/bodies .Natural processes to use these things to keep your brain in balance . By slowing down the usuage of Serotonin or Epinepherine in the brain . Makes for lots of hit and miss prescribing in my opinion . And if you run out then you go through side effects of prescription withdrawels . Amino acids are available from many stores and health food or vitamin stores. OR. you might add a more natural version of a natural anti stress plant called
Skeletorian Tortusium available commercially also . Skeletorium Totusium (mail order name) , in its pharmacy name. is called Zembrin .
Have had great success using over the Long Term .
[ Stress=Inflammation=certain body system nutritional depletion. To handle stress . Ongoing or otherwise. And if you do not replace the the nutrients depletion cause by the stress . You will experience ongoing symptoms( depression) etc.