I've been diagnosed as autistic, but I think I may also be schizoid. Is that possible? Or does one cancel out the other?
I'm most definitely autistic, but I think I may also be one of those "secret schizoids" because of the type or relationships (or lack thereof) I have with people. I know how to make them like me. I have this "other person" that comes out when socializing, so my outward appearance is all smiles and dorky charm, but on the inside I don't give a crap. I don't think I would even care if my best friend of 6 years dropped dead right now.
I don't enjoy being in public or with people. I spend, literally, all my time in my dorm room not talking to anyone. I sometimes go days without saying word, other than my order to the cashiers for food, and I'm not interested in going out. I don't want sex or a boy/girlfriend. I do have a very flat effect, except when I'm being that "other person." I take pleasure in some activities, but it's not that strong. I have my special interests and I love them, but other than that, nothing else. The only person I have fun with and actually care about is my little sister.
The character I've always most identified with is Dexter Morgan, which caused me too look up his disorder. That was 5 years ago, but I thought I was being paranoid, so stopped thinking about it, but the thoughts are back again...
I kind of needed to let this out. Anyways, am I just crazy over here or is it possible to be both?