Entertaining the idea that I might be bipolar

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Prior to today, I've dismissed the thought that I could be bipolar because I figured that it called for random mood swings, and although I do get mood swings at times, there usually has to be a catalyst to my mood swings.

When I get angry, I really get angry. I scream at inanimate objects and throw things around. I guess you could say that I often overreact to things. Sometimes I might have a desire to cut myself, or even have suicidal thoughts racing through my mind (that could be because of my depression and anxiety, though).

I'd just like to hear your input on whether my curiosity is legitimate, or if this all could just be symptoms of my current disorders.

It sounds like something that needs to be taken up with a real doctor.

I don't know, I never even considered myself being bipolar, but after having my most recent breakdown and very rapid cycling uncontrollable extreme mood swings (so bad I have had to drop out of uni, drop everything, and become an invalid cared for by my parents for months) for the first time (normally I go through regular cycles of very severe depression unrelated to external events - I could be super happy and have everything going well for me, then suddenly sink into crushing depression for no reason - interspersed with periods of great productivity and high energy (where I can take on more than most of my NT friends even can manage, let alone AS, and come out on top with perfect grades etc) the psychiatrist confidently diagnosed me with it after several weeks careful observation and taking possible Asperger's related symptoms into account. Apparently my symptoms match Bipolar type 2.

I've come to think I'm bipolar myself, though my mood swings are far less pronounced than most. I think they've mellowed over time - certainly I was prone to massive outbursts of anger as a child.

These days I can be singing to myself at work, full of energy and bouncing off the walls with nervous excitement, and then the next day sink into a melancholy in which I can't focus on work and find myself bored and restless. I tend to start thinkigng about the past when that happens, and while there's lots of nostalgic stuff there I like, there's also a lot of crap I can never quite forget.

I've had to accept that there isn't really much I can do when I get depressed - all I can do is ride through it and wait for things to swing around again.