Can't call my dad, dad the same with the rest of my family.

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I haven't lived with both my dad and mom since I was 3 years old, I remember clearly the day they broke up (he was an alcoholic and they weren't married). I see my dad a few times a year now since 3 years ago.
Can't recall ever have called my dad, dad. I can refer to him as my dad but not infront of him the same with my grand parents, uncles and aunts.
I can only call my mom, mom without trouble and I don't know why.

Could it be from that day they broke up that it happened to me, because I recall to have called my grand parents, grandma/pa before it happened.
And I remember sometimes when my dad came home drunk when I was 3 years old that I hid behind the door to my room, because I got scared.

So could it be my dad who caused that social anxiety?

And yes I CAN remember from back then, me and my mom was in their bedroom and she sang songs for me and I remember the last song she sang which got interrupted when my dad came home drunk.
My mom got mad at him and began to yell at him, he threw a pizza he took home with him on the floor, then held her against a wall where they began to yell at each other and stuff happened that I would rather not talk about

Maybe this is hard to understand hence I am not that good at expressing myself on paper.

I'm no professional, but it sounds to me like you have some unresolved issues that might be worked out in therapy. May I suggest you seek that out? We all could benefit from it in one form or another.