I know I am relatively new here, so you guys don't know me very well. but anyway, I could use some support.
I have been feeling off-color/depressed for the last 3 days.I am on disability and see my life as going nowhere. I feel like I am just drifting through life but have no motivation to do anything about it. it's like I don't care anymore. haven't cared in a couple of years. sometimes I feel like killing myself. I know that when both of my parents are gone I will be a suicide watch case. my mother's health hasn't been great. she is recovering from a stroke she had in march and had a scare last week when her blood pressure was off the charts. I worry about her dying and my reaction to it.
I just feel not so good. nothing seems to be going right at this time.