Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

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Does anybody have this? I have had it for about two years. I obsess over everything and I have anxiety issues. I obsess over the way my teeth look, my hair looks, and how clean I am.

My compulsions include tapping on objects, crossing doorways, and doing things in certain patterns.

I currently take both Prozac and Zyprexa for my OCD and see a psychiatrist and a therapist. I could be doing worse, but I could be doing a lot better too.

Yes. I've got "stuck in a doorway" syndrome. I always get stuck on light switches. Odd numbers are evil. If I'm eating pizza, I eat either two slices or four, never one or three. I'll eat four even if I'm not hungry enough for it. I've bought books I didn't even want just so that I wouldn't own an odd number of books from that author. And so on and so forth.

I do not have OCD (that's what I think, at least, because I can control my impulses), but I get obssesed with weird things. For example, I HAVE to turn up or down the TV volume to a multiple of 5. Its 30, 35, 40, 45... When I am walking on tiled floor I cannot look down or I will try to avoid stepping on the lines... Stuff like that. Makes me feel weird.

I like that, stuck...one of the best things about being in the AS/ASD community is finding new ways of explaining things like this to others


I've had OCD for as long as I can remember, in school my friends had great fun moving things in my bedroom to see how long it'd take me to notice or have to move it back. With BDD my OCD then has my need to check the mirrors a million times before leaving the house and in a specific order, various other little obsessive things surrounding my BDD and my social anxieties.

For me it's just needing things to be in the right place or aligned correctly, another one is a need to touch things correctly such as getting my fingers/hand right into the corner of a handrail, I get a little of the need to do things in specific number, when going for a walk or into a shop I go into daily I have to walk a specific route, but my main OCD thing is symmetry.

Light-switches; if one side of my finger grazes the switch then I need to turn the switch on/off again so the other side grazes, and then on/off again so it's dead-centre. Legs; if I scratch one side of my leg I have to do the same on the other leg and then scratch on the other side of the legs too. An especially bad example is sitting on my laptop, the scroll bar is on the right-hand side and I get a strong need for something on the left-hand side to move too, or on web pages I have to move the scroll bar all the way down to the bottom of the screen...which is problematic when using Facebook that just keeps adding more

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My Body Dysmorphic disorder is disputedly and I'd say definitely in the OCD realm.

Get one hand wet, must get the other wet.

Check 5+ times to see if stove is off

Lock and unlock car 3+ times to "make sure" it's locked + didn't just imagine the beep

Used to eat every last scrap of food cause I felt sorry for pieces of rice left behind

Need to have objects in a certain order. Often feel the absolute need for a vehicle I'm in to turn right and feel horribly panicked when it goes left instead.

Pillow needs to be at the end of the bed it feels "right" at, which varies

BDD's the only debilitating OCD behavior of mine though.

Yes and sometimes it`s very bad!! Other times it`s mild.

Same here. It can be fine for days weeks, and suddenly get really bad out of nowhere. Wastes soo much time...

I very much have OCD. Everyone is out to get me, I have to do things in certain patterns, I have to lock all the doors over and over again, everything has to be lined up perfectly, everything has to be even, ect., ect. ect.

I have extremely bad OCD. I basically can't go outside if I don't look like a model, and with all the additional procedures, it takes me hours to get done - often I postpone it to another day or week, when I'm half done. I also have some body dysmorphic disorder... it comes and goes in various ways. In my late teens and early twenties, I was completely obsessing over getting plastic surgery, when all I needed was to do my hair better, change my style of clothing and wear makeup (I'm a guy, by the way). Today it is, instead, things like that I for some time started imagining that my eyes weren't perfectly centered; that they were starting to squint a tiny bit. I later accepted that it was because you have to look into either of your eyes, when you look in the mirror, so that's why they seemed to point in the opposite direction, a bit. Recently I have been looking at the shape of my nose - on the one side, it doesn't look exactly the same as on the other, better side. It's a tiny, almost unnoticeable difference but it puzzles me that I have never noticed it, before. It's making me wonder if I've somehow caused damage to the cartilage. Maybe it's not permanent, though... could be some sort of swelling, I suppose. I also am a bit annoyed at a slight shape difference on the right side of my chin, and then I have a spot on my left hand that has come fairly recently... I hate it and can't stop thinking about it. :/ I want to pick at it with a needle and get the pigment out of it. I have done that, before, and it worked pretty well, but that doesn't mean it'd work this time... maybe I'm going to have to have surgery for it. -_-

I have real problems with filth, also.... I've washed my hands so often, so many times, that my knuckles have started to bleed. I also can't sit on a "clean" floor, and can't really use much stuff I have, properly, since I don't want to get the things filthy. Of course, they get filthy, anyway, regardless if I use them or not, but I just can't seem to get that into my mind. I'm working on the filth stuff to make it better, though, and I'm having some progress, but this has basically ruined my life since eight and a half years back - before then, it was only moderate.

Also, then there are things like that whenever I lock the door to my apartment, I have to check if the door really was closed, over and over, and reassure myself of that I didn't just imagine it. I tend to do things, at times, to make me remember that me locking it indeed happened. I also put certain patterns in my apartment so that I will know if somebody who shouldn't be there has been in it. I also may check for hidden miniature cameras and could never imagine being naked near an unconcealed window. Even when it is so, though, I keep thinking that someone might be taking photos of me through the small gaps, on the sides of the blinds, with a superzoom lens and manual focusing. What worries me far more, however, is it happening to my true love, wherever she is. It's highly unlikely that it'd happen to me, with all my precautions, but I have no idea what precautions she is taking, which is very frustrating to think about.

There are more things than that, as well. >_> It's a wonder that I haven't lost my mind, yet.

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Hehe, I know the feeling. Sometimes I think I already have.

Yeah it does waste time!

Yes the tv volume most be a even number.
My room must be clean before I go to bed.
If my feet are wet my hands most be to.
I have to toss and turn before I fall asleep.

I still have obsessive compulsive behaviours (OCB) but I used to have severe OCD. I was convinced that everything I touched was covered in a thick layer of germs, I had hundreds of phobias (the compulsions and obsessions were often related to these phobias, in particular the fear of vomiting). These days it's only the occasional 'silly' behaviour like needing to touch my other arm if one is bumped, having to touch things four times with each hand and switching light switches as I walk past. These are most likely related to my Tourettes rather than OCD.

I think I do. Examples of stuff I do:

-When I was five or six, I learned that the middle finger was bad. Now I have to keep it down. The "safe" position for my hands is with the middle finger down and the second and fourth finger up.
-I hate leaving fingerprints. I have to wipe them off. Sometimes give me problems while I'm typing.
-I have to touch objects in the right way. If I don't, then I have to "pet" them with the back of my hand until it feels right.
-I can't look at certain colors, numbers, letters, or words when I blink. The "safe" letters are b, c, d, g, l, o, p, and t. I'm also not "allowed" to breathe in while looking at certain words, or else I have to expel the air out of my lungs. Reading Catcher in the Rye was hard.
-I count steps taken between cracks and on certain materials, number of syllables in my sentences (cannot be six), and number of times I do certain things. (there are five bullet points here because I didn't want to reach six :P)


Is it common with AS?

Yes, and at times it was so severe it made me suicidal.
I became obsessed with a particular body part, and would spend up to 3 hours studying it from every angle in the mirror each evening, and getting myself into a right state about it.

I now can't settle down until I have made sure all the labels in my food cupboards are facing frontwise, that everything on my table is lined up straight and that certain items of clothing are folded in a particular way.

I also tend to get obsessive, repeating thoughts. It is a nightmare, and definitely connected to anxiety in my case, or to an inability to express emotions, I have found.

I cannot remember when it started.

I have a theory that it's kind of like a "stim". Many of the ones I have, I have to do constantly, like making sure I don't blink in certain places. Maybe it helps remove my mind from the world around me or something.

Any tips on getting rid of them? There was one I successfully got rid of, but in order to get rid of it, I had to stim constantly. It was something that I said in my head over and over again when I did certain things (like while blinking in certain places I had to say the phrase), but the only way I found that could get rid of it was to repeat certain phrases/sounds in my head or to do things like tapping the table or spinning in my chair.

Also, after I got rid of that one, a new one came to take its place. D:
I now have to look back twice and "apologize" to a crack if I step on it. (sounds weird)