Somatization disorder

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I should start off by saying I'm pretty agitated right now.
I do not remember my childhood, nothing. My siblings sometimes tell me stories of what I did or what they did to me but for the life of me I cannot remember. I know that my childhood was miserable.
My mom can read Energy. Energy is a window to whatever you want to know about yourself.
I had this pain in my lower back and so I asked her if she could take a look at it, we arrived on a rather... "different" story. Turns out that I was sexually abused by my cousin. At first I was joking about it with myself, thinking that I'm not gonna be one of those people. Anyways she continued by saying that there is a pattern of it throughout my family. Now I'm thinking, What.?
I've always thought that my family is "Elite" we are unbreakable, perfect. I don't know why I keep getting knocked on my ass on that decision, my siblings continue to be dumbasses. Now I learn this? The ultimate sacrilige! Incest. Commited by my own siblings and cousins. Now I know why I had the shameful attraction to my sister, wtf!
I will not be the one to carry on the corrupted cycle of my family!

Effects of child sexual abuse include guilt and self-blame, flashbacks, nightmares, insomnia, fear of things associated with the abuse (including objects, smells, places, doctor's visits, etc.), self-esteem issues, sexual dysfunction, chronic pain, addiction, self-injury, suicidal ideation, somatic complaints, depression, post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, other mental illnesses (including borderline personality disorder) propensity to re-victimization in adulthood, and physical injury to the child, among other problems. Victims of child sex abuse are over six times more likely to attempt suicide and eight times more likely to repeatedly attempt suicide. The abusers are also more likely to commit suicide. Much of the harm caused to victims becomes apparent years after the abuse happens.

Sexual abuse by a family member is a form of incest, and results in more serious and long-term psychological trauma, especially in the case of parental incest.-Wikipedia

I've lived with all that for who knows how long. I've always wondered why I think the way I do, why I think I'm so broken, why I think my "S.O.B." story is the saddest. Especially learning about the Somatization disorder, it all makes sense: I've always over-reacted to small changes in my body, constipation, stomach problems etc. and all of it never made sense!

I know exactly who did it but the gift I got apart from my family is rational thinking, logic, and patience. I'm waiting for my mom to figure out the most appropriete way to deal with the issue (I say intervention) I'm upset but I would much rather handle it respectfully.

Anyone who is interested in Somatization disorder here's a link: http://www.minddisorders.com/Py-Z/Somat ... order.html

You know sometimes when a person has physical symptoms with no identifiable cause...it's just because they haven't identified the cause.

I got dragged to a lot of doctors when I was younger who could never find anything wrong with me and though they never said it I could tell they usually chalked them up to their mis-conception that people with OCD are hypochondriacs. This prevented me from being referred to the specialists I actually needed to see and I almost died. Ironically it's that near death experience that finally lead to a proper diagnosis of what was ailing me.

I've learned 3 things from this.

1. Don't tell doctors you have OCD unless you need medication for it from them.
2. Do your own research to present ideas to the doctor concerning the source of your symptoms.
3. Blood tests almost always come back normal unless you have organ failure, thyroid problems, diabetes or some blood disease.

Wow! You should consider therapy. However, if you want to press charges (you usually have to be under 28 or 30 in most states unless it's still listed as punishable by death there), you will need evidence that doesn't involve "energy"readings or anything else with no accepted medical explanation, or supporting testimony from someone who has never been close with your mom before you even have a chance of not getting laughed out of the police station. Good luck!