Sometimes, I have feelings that are very comfortable and soothing but are fleeting as well. I might feel that way for a week or so and then it'll vanish.
Here are some examples:
When I was living with my father, he threatened to kick me out every day. I felt afraid that I wouldn't have a place to sleep at night. One evening while he was at work, I was playing Aliens vs. Predator on the PC and I came upon some crew quarters that were very small yet efficient. I thought that if I could live there, I'd not have a care in the world. I suddenly felt very safe and secure.
Last Christmas, I got into Dungeons and Dragons and I made a couple of friends. It was a very good time. I looked back at that AvP game and thought that if I could transport myself there along with my friends, hang out, talk, play D&D and other RPGs. Even what I was wearing make me comfortable. It was a gray shirt with darker gray sleeves with a thermal undershirt, blue jeans and a Gerber Gear knife. I slept very soundly.
Anyway, the point is, I wish I could hang on to these feelings.
Hope this makes sense to someone.
17 Jul 2012, 1:32 pm
