Page 1 of 1 [ 2 posts ] 

Darialan
Deinonychus
Deinonychus

User avatar

Joined: 30 Mar 2011
Age: 47
Gender: Male
Posts: 357
Location: Coudersport, PA

16 Apr 2012, 10:17 pm

It started Saturday night. I had a rage attack at a video game and felt guilty for it later that night. My parents were just getting to bed. Sunday night my laptop was screwing up and so was the internet temporarily. Lasted maybe 30 minutes while I had another rage attack all the while scream and yelling. I'm just now realizing that the rage attacks I had those nights weren't the usual ones. They were louder than usual. From this afternoon till now I've been gradually sinking into a blah, no energy, tired, hot, anxious or depressed state. Had a small insignificant trouble with my iphone that lasted a few minutes at the most till I figured out how to quick fix it. All in all these things that happened and triggered my reactions as of late till even now are usual stuff. Just regular stuff that happens every so often. They aren't things that I normally hang onto that long. So this is day 3 of not feeling well. I was talking to someone else and I just felt and even told them that it's just normal for me to go off the handle once in a while, but no this isn't normal. Not this intense, not feeling this bad inside for this long over things that aren't that big on my scale. I don't know what's really bothering me, what is causing this. I've been taking my meds as usual. No change there. I just don't get it. I explained to my mom earlier about the blow ups and that being an aspie sort of made me tunnel visioned and when something gets in the way in my daily life, I see no detour around it. All I see is a barrier in my way. And that's why I reacted that way. Although that has something to do with it, that doesn't quite explain enough at all.



questor
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 23 Apr 2011
Age: 65
Gender: Female
Posts: 2,696
Location: Twilight Zone

16 Apr 2012, 11:19 pm

Sounds like a hormone imbalance, or some other kind of imbalance to me. Or perhaps your body is changing it's reaction to one or more of your meds.

I have always had a tendency towards depression and getting real emotional, and also melt downs. However, it lessened some once I became an adult, and gradually lessened more over the years. It got even better a few years ago, once I started living alone. :D A couple of years after I started my solitary lifestyle, I was on an opioid pain med for a shingles outbreak. All of a sudden I started to have deeper depressions, and emotional attacks, mostly while alone, and mostly for stuff that either shouldn't have bothered me, or that I've gotten able to deal with at my age. It was really weird because it didn't feel like my usual depressions and emotional attacks. It felt so wrong and alien to me. I finally figured out that it was the opioid. As soon as I could handle the shingles pain on my own I took myself off the med. There were actually withdrawal symptoms for a few days after that, even though I hadn't been on it long! It was worth going through the withdrawals to me though. Who wants to have their own already existing problems made worse by meds. Also, the drug made me woozy and had me staggering around the place, and I was afraid I would fall and hurt myself. The side effects of the med were worse than the withdrawal symptoms, and those are only temporary. Give me the temporary problem over the bad effects any day!

Tell your doc about this and have your hormone system checked out. Also, the doc may know of other possible causes.


_________________
If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away.--Henry David Thoreau