Truman show delusion

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I feel as though I'm being watched 24/7. I thought that people had cameras implanted in their eyes to record my activities. I also thought that people didn't have reproductive organs. This is what made me relapse: the thought of people being intimate. I feel as though it's all an elaborate plan to prepare me for something. Has anyone else had a Truman show style delusion?

I have been more or less prone to it the whole of my life.

I still tend to believe that people are looking at me all the time when I am out, but it is not as bad as it used to be. I have half-learned that most people don't look at much and certainly aren't keeping the sort of eagle-eye on me that I used to "experience".

For several years in my early-mid twenties I used to walk around, on campus and then in London "as if" I was some sort of star of a film, the "centre of all eyes" as I put it in a poem from that time. That was when I was still totally high on food opioid peptides and before my body started collapsing from excessive alcohol and sugar and food opioid consumption and the whole world began to feel like a force turned against me, and before I went on an exclusion diet and discovered that the world was actually outside my head, ( really out there, and that I am IN the world ), and that the gaze I had been so hyper-aware of was "just me", my own value judgements, criticisms, etc.

I still haven't got rid of that kind of thinking but it is a lot less enclosing, a lot more transparent; I know that it is my gaze now. :)
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I also feel as though I'm being observed and my environment and circumstances altered.

Sometimes when I'm feeling that way, I'll go lucid and thing that's a pretty self-centered way of thinking. Why would someone want to watch me? I'm not that special.

I wish I had cameras implanted in my eyes to record activities. But rest assured, cameras like that...at leas that you can't see and don't damage the host's vision, don't exist yet.

And ask yourself, why would people want to watch you anyway? Most of us aren't entertaining enough for a reality show or up to anything that warrants being watched.

I sometimes feel that I am being watched and that obstacles or something are being put in my way. It is not strong. More of an entertaining thought. But sometimes things happen that make me think: Ah, I am being helped. Or if its bad, someone hates me! The tuman show is a good representation of these ideas. I reckon most people have these thoughts.

While my feelings didn't go quite as far as yours, I was prone to experiencing somewhat similar thoughts in the past.

[quote="Lazenca_x"]I feel as though I'm being watched 24/7. I thought that people had cameras implanted in their eyes to record my activities. I also thought that people didn't have reproductive organs. This is what made me relapse: the thought of people being intimate. I feel as though it's all an elaborate plan to prepare me for something. Has anyone else had a Truman show style delusion?[/quote]

I have a friend who thought she he had a "connection" with some guy on TV because he seemed to be "talking to her" with lots of coincidences as to what was going on in her life and home and I thought it was just wishful thinking and she was being delusional. Then when I spent some time at her house & she was playing several shows in a row on this same channel including the one with this guy which was a comedy talk show so lots of flexibility with improv and what they say, there were numerous comments where unusual things we said and actions that occurred in her home over the past day were repeated almost mockingly verbatim. I felt absolutely sure they could see in her home -- it was so blatant and crazy. I was stunned and no clue why it would be happening except as some sort of sick experiment? It was very much like the Truman show and she said it has been going on for years. I even tested it by saying out loud to wear a top hat and a bow tie on this show the next day and he did. Then I said the following day to show a flag & they had a huge British one covering the entire wall, and then the last day I said to wear all black and every single person on the entire cast had black on (which is not the norm). I was furious at first that we were being spied on and our privacy invaded, but there is truly nothing you can do without looking crazy (and they know that). My friend has told me that things she just looked at while away from home without saying anything have been brought up on this show. I tested this also by having her look at a small picture I drew in the palm of my hand which I shielded. It was a drawing of a candy cane. The next day they had an entire skit about candy canes. She said she was told by the brother of a woman who lives in the apartment right below her in the same building that she was being treated for schizophrenia because she insists she is being communicated with through the TV and radio. All too much of a coincidence to me so you have to wonder how much of this is going on. By the way we had a friend with technology devices sweep her apartment and allegedly found no listening devices, but you can tap in remotely through TVs and electronic devices and wireless form outside or they could have turned them off for a while. I also at one point found the private email of the host of the show and wrote him and he responded with some vague comment ending with "don't worry, I'll be watching from above." ???? The next day the email account had been deleted. So do they target certain types of people in certain situations? Single women. She doesn't have much money. Who knows. But I told her the best thing to do is not give them anything. They want to see a reaction and maybe study it? I just stopped watching it or paying attention or going around her house, but she can't seem to stop watching because she likes the attention, so.... Wanted to share this bizarre experience.

Sounds a bit schizophrenic to me, but nevertheless, I know feelings like that.

It sounds like paranoid schizophrenia to me too but it depends if you actually believe these delusions or it's just your imagination.
And yes, I used to identify a lot with the main character. But that happened years ago when I was bullied and I thought i was a part of some experiment.
Now I see I'm not that really important and people are just cruel. Maybe could be a form of narcissism too but i'm not sure.