My 13yo daughter has been suffering from depression, anxiety, disordered eating, self harm and now mild psychosis. She has been seeing professionals for 2 years and has tried 4 different medications with very little improvement.
My life is in turmoil - ive had to quit uni studies and have missed alot of work recently and she has missed most of the last term of school.
I have no discernable routine and she is staying with relatives whilst I work so that I can pay the rent.
She has been hospitalised twice in the last week for feeling suidical.
It just feels that I am running out of options - cant take anymore time off work, am running out of family members and friends to look after her.
Even the pathetic mental health system is saying she needs to improve before she can attend a more long term facility and she needs to stop utilising hospital as a safe place and try to develop her own resilience when life gets tough.
I feel that I cannot leave her unattended and need to talk to her all the time to make sure she will be ok.
I may be experiencing seperation anxiety from thinking of all the things that could happen if I am not there to prevent it.
I am also becomming depressed in the form of learned helplessness - everything I try fails due to unforseeable circumstances that just keep coming wave after wave. It has been a very challenging year. I have got ASD and and my ability to handle changes daily is particularly difficult like having to cancel going to work at the last minute due to her not being able to attend school and me not feeling comfortable leaving her at home all day alone.
I took her to work for 2 weeks and some a**hole complained to managers in head office. I have been told that I cannot bring my daughter to work with me anymore.
I am running out of options and out of coping strategies - everything is falling apart.
I need her to start to get better soon - the next step is me quitting work and going on welfare to care for her - which means that we will have to move to a cheaper area. Welfare will not even cover the rent.
Any advice?
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