Yehh I had a similar thing actually. I have both pure and obsessional O. I have the germ and chemical contamination fears but I also tense up around the elderly because I have these intrusive thoughts that I might harm them even though such a thing is total anathema to me. Basically OCD tends to consume that which is most important to me so meditation was hijacked because of religious concerns my music making is interfered with on the grounds that certain chord progressions are forbidden and immoral thoughts mean that I have to sacrifice musical ideas (a sort of penance if you will). Then there's the fact that I have no friends as a result. I had 2 really close friends who I basically had to abandon because OCD reared its head yet again.
Ive never been medicated for it incidentally. To be honest its such a part of me that whenever ive had cbt I dont even raise it - it just never occurs to me because the obsessions are woven into my thought processes.
21 Nov 2013, 6:46 am
