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10 Sep 2015, 4:01 pm

I get this feeling from time to time that just completely overwhelms me almost like my world is coming to an end or something is just really wrong with reality. It's really hard to put into words but right now I literally feel as though I'm going to loose my sanity. Almost like you got "it" figured out and "it" turns out to be extremely fukked up. "it" being our existence, I think...?

Man this sucks, I feel like I'm all alone with this :(



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11 Sep 2015, 1:09 am

Yes. It's kind of like background music in my life that reaches a crescendo at various times. It's horrible. But it isn't me; the world is really messed up and I just think about it too much/often.



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11 Sep 2015, 6:45 am

Crazyfool wrote:
I get this feeling from time to time that just completely overwhelms me almost like my world is coming to an end or something is just really wrong with reality. It's really hard to put into words but right now I literally feel as though I'm going to loose my sanity. Almost like you got "it" figured out and "it" turns out to be extremely fukked up. "it" being our existence, I think...?

Man this sucks, I feel like I'm all alone with this :(



Before you do anything else, go and talk to a doctor about this, and get a reference to see a psychiatrist.
Existential angst is one thing, but my experience is that our brains are just soup!
add the right ingredients, leave the wrong ones out,
is the difference between a delicious life and a life you want to throw out.

Also, throw in a pinch of salt before you get advice off the internet!
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11 Sep 2015, 7:08 am

Crazyfool wrote:
I get this feeling from time to time that just completely overwhelms me almost like my world is coming to an end or something is just really wrong with reality. It's really hard to put into words but right now I literally feel as though I'm going to loose my sanity. Almost like you got "it" figured out and "it" turns out to be extremely fukked up. "it" being our existence, I think...?

Man this sucks, I feel like I'm all alone with this :(


that's the bottomline of existence, and existence starts here
the rest of what is, is a projection, one that's telling very hard it is not

looking for mirrors, looking at mirrors, lost in mirrors
as this window's a mirror
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMeZCPbM6bA



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11 Sep 2015, 8:54 am

traven wrote:
Crazyfool wrote:
I get this feeling from time to time that just completely overwhelms me almost like my world is coming to an end or something is just really wrong with reality. It's really hard to put into words but right now I literally feel as though I'm going to loose my sanity. Almost like you got "it" figured out and "it" turns out to be extremely fukked up. "it" being our existence, I think...?

Man this sucks, I feel like I'm all alone with this :(


that's the bottomline of existence, and existence starts here
the rest of what is, is a projection, one that's telling very hard it is not

looking for mirrors, looking at mirrors, lost in mirrors
as this window's a mirror
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMeZCPbM6bA


I think that's a part of what I get so anxious about, I have a hard time with that feeling that this is all some kind of dream, projection, hologram...what ever you want to call it....it's just tough to accept how meaningless that seems. Like this world is all a stage.

Thanks for the tune though that helped calm me down, love the velvet!



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11 Sep 2015, 9:03 am

syzygyish wrote:
Crazyfool wrote:
I get this feeling from time to time that just completely overwhelms me almost like my world is coming to an end or something is just really wrong with reality. It's really hard to put into words but right now I literally feel as though I'm going to loose my sanity. Almost like you got "it" figured out and "it" turns out to be extremely fukked up. "it" being our existence, I think...?

Man this sucks, I feel like I'm all alone with this :(



Before you do anything else, go and talk to a doctor about this, and get a reference to see a psychiatrist.
Existential angst is one thing, but my experience is that our brains are just soup!
add the right ingredients, leave the wrong ones out,
is the difference between a delicious life and a life you want to throw out.

Also, throw in a pinch of salt before you get advice off the internet!
:P

I've got a shrink I see regularly for medication maintenance but he just chalks it up to being dissociation caused by anxiety and a mood disorder. Keeps insisting on trying different antipshychotics mood stabalizers and they aren't helping at all. The only thing that helps is taking my klonopin but that's just temporary.



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11 Sep 2015, 12:21 pm

Yeah, it comes and goes. Sometimes I feel like I'm on an unstable split timeline and all my permanent problems are a result of this. I feel like I'm just an observer sometimes too. These ideas float into my head, but I don't roll with them, life's just hard for everyone.
I only found this song very recently, last three weeks, the lyrics perfectly encapsulates my thoughts sometimes:



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11 Sep 2015, 12:43 pm

Feyokien wrote:
Yeah, it comes and goes. Sometimes I feel like I'm on an unstable split timeline and all my permanent problems are a result of this. I feel like I'm just an observer sometimes too. These ideas float into my head, but I don't roll with them, life's just hard for everyone.
I only found this song very recently, last three weeks, the lyrics perfectly encapsulates my thoughts sometimes:


Can you give me the link to the video? Apparently I don't have a plugin required to watch it.

Sometimes music's the only thing that I can identify my thoughts and feelings with. I've tried making a "post a song that you relate to at this very moment" thread, but no one ever seems to want to keep it afloat.



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11 Sep 2015, 1:18 pm

https://youtu.be/RlEIo0WPn58

Where is this thread of which you speak?