I know that this can happen, but I was wondering if any of you have experienced it.
I think that this on top of some degree of alexithymia can make it really difficult to know how one truly feels about anything. I think this has been some of my problem that I’m just now becoming aware of.
When I was out of my medications, I noticed that it was a lot easier to identify how I was feeling. Even feeling some negative emotions wasn’t entirely a bad thing since the expression of them allowed for some catharsis.
While I don’t think I should quit taking medications entirely, I am trying to lower my dosage and see how it goes. Although I’m not going to ignore the possibility that this won’t work (especially if some sort of crisis comes up), I’m really hoping that it does.
So far, I’m feeling a lot better!
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“The darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.”
— from Four Quartets by T.S. Eliot