Before I started taking medications, I would act very aggressively that got me suspended from school, would argue, run away, sometimes disobey the rules , had self doubts, could not control myself most of the time and would go into defense mode when I had specific paranoid delusional thoughts and also had delusions of grandeur.
It's complicated, the short history is that I had false beliefs that I was working for the military to find aliens and had hallucinations that the military police was going after me. I also had a delusion that there was police brutality against everyone. And I also had unusual racial thoughts about people of color, but all of this stopped when I was on medications.
It was a mess.
I was fifteen years old when I had that psychotic episode.
13 Feb 2021, 2:01 am
