I often wonder if I've been 'conditioned' to be autistic.
I was a very talkative, emotional child with big feelings, but I was constantly told to shut up, stop talking, calm down, don't overreact, keep my feelings private, or my mum and others got very angry with me.
So I learned to do all that. To basically stop showing or even having emotions, because they upset other people and I got punished. Therefore I became an unemotional person who rarely shows her feelings, but has a tornado of feelings inside all the time. And also because I wasn't allowed to have feelings, I never learned what feelings are or how to cope with them.
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That alien woman. On Earth to observe and wonder about homo sapiens.