lesbian and trying to connect with NT lesbians

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I'm an Aspie lesbian that's androgyne in appearance and content with that. My relationships have been extremely intense and stormy. It always ends in catastrophe for me. I have had to learn to sleep beside someone (I'm sensistive to body heat, and breath, and sounds), to endure cuddling and being held, I have no clue what is so good about being romantic (flowers wilt, what's the point? But I buy them anyway just don't understand why ) and when I was younger I was rather happy living on my own. Missed sex, that's all. Very high sexdrive of course, to make things even more complicated. And now, through my recent NT X, I've learned to appreciate intimacy, tenderness, closeness and everything I never had a clue about before.

It's frustrating becoming an adult at the age of 38 lol. I feel like I will never ever love another woman like that again. She is everything I want, and with her I learned to want and need on a scale that's blown me away. Now I'm left with a thousand questions and a completely broken heart, and emotional needs I don't want and barely understand because they are so new to me. I think most NT's go through this phase as teens, or am I wrong? I never did anyway. I didn't expect any of this at my age either!

She did give me the best pieces of advice I've ever gotten when dealing with GFs:

1) I need you to listen without trying to fix this. Just listen.
2) Remember that I am not in your head

I hate mind games, I don't play them and I don't go along with them.

I'm in a relationship with an NT woman and we get on pretty well, it's not always easy but I found someone who gets me, most of the time. My partner learned to ask me directly for things and don't wait around for me to guess what she wants (that happened before we discovered my AS, she kind of understood that I worked differently). She's got a great sense of humour too, which helps a great deal, she appreciates the structure I bring to her life with my logical approach.

As novastar369 mentioned, instead of trying to read people I was always straight forward (when I was single). I found that women tend to answer to this bluntness positively, that's how I met my partner.

And this from Novastorm made e smile (I still hear both sentences more often than I would like).