Getting really tired of this.

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Good luck with your own job quest, I'm looking forward to a confusing, ideally uneventful Monday. I guess in the vernacular of WP I've been pretty 'shut down' lately. Nine pages of random thoughts did little about the fact that I almost didn't write anything in the first place. My mental state is closer to the technological singularity than the reality of things for a while at least, as a guy I guess my subconscious deals in excuses not to fully express myself, as a result of all the stigma that goes with behaving like a robot.

I think if I wasn't bouncing these ideas off everybody I'd gradually go even more nuts that I already am. There are very good reasons my old coworkers were trying to convince me to build a track car. Sooner or later I'll be off my arse funding a less boring lifestyle to be sure, no doubt involving fast machines, thus I thank everyone here reminding me that I might somehow relate to people as well as I do to gears & transistors.

I am much likelier to impulse buy a cheap Porsche than I am to trade in my cargos & hoodies for anything stylish anytime soon.

Ain't nothin' wrong with that.

Not a problem except still looking for a job. They are much more likely to hire somebody who makes them believe that he is very successful and for this the one who makes their business boost then the one who really knows what needs to be done but doesn't looks as successfull at what he is doing. Your cheap Porsche somewhere on the street doesn't impresses anybody. Better invest the money in your flat. You can wear your hoodies for your comfort but it's good to know how to dress more impressive at the right places. I'm not talking about total overdressing or dressing like a penguin. But a stylish shirt and jeans or cargos of visibly high quality as well as a good looking jacket and not wearing the most cheap looking shoes can make a big difference in life because people treat you a bit differently then. Not even few people care about that.

Recent political events have me thinking about the necessity of scaling back our status-based society just a bit. On good days I make an effort to dress OK I suppose, I'm cheaper than most apartment renters though since I have two housemates, I guess I can put some of that in clothes once more money shows up.

The car thing is more of a compulsion/adrenaline fix than much of any serious pursuit of style points.

It's not particularly often one's national government halfway implodes on what was already a really bad week. I guess I'll go into details some other time, there's too much to whine about & I have to work on my resume. Time for a fun drive to my dad's so we can talk about LinkedIn.

I'll be around again when some of the drudge is done with.

I guess I'm a subscriber to the philosophy to the 'no news is good news' philosophy since it's been raining bad news for me lately. Everyone wants to move somewhere suddenly, myself included if it were really all about the right job entirely. Last week I was at a funeral too.

I mean ultimately the handful of real personal connections I have IRL matter more to me than money, particularly these days. I'm ultimately more motivated by people than my persona suggests, digitally or otherwise.

More nonsense from me later, I feel like I could stand to post more music around WP.

I can't help but feel recent events have made everyone really suspicious of each other.

I wasn't a particularly trusting person in the first place but this zeitgeist goes way beyond my kind of shyness.

I think the ghosting has gone full circle & become the norm.

I shouldn't bump threads that reinforce stereotypes about our social ineptitude. Going on about how guys like myself need to learn how to be rejected properly only makes everyone on the autism spectrum reject themselves more. I'm not sure there's any totally correct response to circumstances resulting from a problematic culture as a whole.

Overthinking something negative like that only eventually tricks us all into believing isolation is just the default for people with ASD.

Stereotypes about how people feel tend to give everyone the wrong idea eventually, I guess that probably explains a lot.

That's for sure. But it's good to become aware of yourself and to understand the things that you need to improve. Instead of overthinking you have also to try thing in real life. Trying is better then studying only. Shyness and overly unsure behaviour can be a really big problem. You have been teached a lot of social behaviour. But if you behave overly adapted you become invisible at best case. You become also an easy target for idiots. Try sports for becomming fitter and build enough self-confidence that others start to care about you. Learn to read people. Imagine your-self being in their shoes and ask your-self why you behave the same way that they do in that moment. After a while you'll get others a lot better. You'll recognize their unsure self-restricting behaviour, see their fears to even move a little bit a wrong way and doing something wrong and you'll recognize their intentions. Especially women recognize that often too and care a lot about that. Ask yourself how you would think about somebody who is like you. Become more aware of yourself. Learn to become the one in the eyes of others that you want them to treat you as. It's possible.

All I want for xmas ever is a 968 ClubSport.

Dang, that thing is fly as heck.

Realistically I could buy several 986s for the price of one 968, but the heart wants what it wants.

It's difficult to factor in sex appeal when I also just want something screaming fast. Not every car strikes a balance.

FWIW this costs less than that old Porsche though:

I suppose it behooves me to mention I death metal.

Here's my favorite dead rapper.

omggg I love it

Heh at least it doesn't quite cost my net worth, but it might in that color.

Weirdly enough for me, I don't mind driving something more businesslike since I'm normally 100% casual.

I look forward to finding reasons to sharpen up a bit but I'm also way too comfortable doing nothing & quarantining. I need to go shopping but I'll find some leftovers to eat & call it a day, the misanthropic nonsense in my head has been getting to me.

Ultimately as much as I love this stuff, my materialistic side's not all there. I'm trying to focus on humanity more than machinery but it's rare for me to start a conversation. Unlike most I've been meaning to spend more time on WP.

I'm in a weird limbo between being too isolated & not really being used to anything else. It's sort of misled me to subconsciously look for mechanical or technological answers to real-life questions that are totally irrelevant to the man made world.

The pursuit of actually being cool instead of seeking status is a quixotic trip.

I think I speak design language better than any kind of written or spoken word. Never mind, wtf am I talking about anyway?

I do worry about my threads getting boring & this one's probably too strange for the Raves thread so here's something for the big speakers from a noisy hacker in Japan.


Not that I can sleep or whatever but goodnight everyone else.