A lot of times when I thought my mother was abusing me, she was only doing what she felt was best. Because she did not understand about AS, she did not understand that I did not know or understand her advice and saw it only as criticism, that I was wrong because I was not like her. After she learned about AS, and that my father has AS as well, she started to understand and it has mended a lot of wounds. I hope your mother comes to understand too.
"Abusing with her mouth" I think means that she is verbally abusive. Aggressive personalities can be abusive without knowing it, just like we give of signals we do not intend. I'm sorry to hear about the abusive boyfriends she has had. I was sexually assaulted at a very young age too, and had an awful school life. We are more alike than different.
Think of that, though, when I say, that as you get older, things make more sense and life becomes more pleasurable as a result. Reading a lot of books on philosophy helps as well, particularly books from the mid-twentieth century. Even ancient books show that our struggles aren't as unique as they seem.
30 Mar 2006, 11:32 pm
