So part of the message on Facebook went like this. He started out by asking about how far would I go if we made out and I was telling him that I didn't want to go as far as sex. So then the message goes on from there..
10:20am
Him
The same.
I just wanted to see how you would answer. ^^
I mean, if you wanted to, I'd sleep with you, but just snuggling.
10:20am
Me
Do you believe that going as far as sex is wrong?
10:21am
Him
Yeah, I don't want sex before I'm married.
10:21am
Me
Okay, because I just wanted to see if we both thought the same.
10:22am
Him
Though, I have a feeling if we started making out, things could get out of hand quickly.
10:22am
Me
Really?
10:22am
Him
Yeah.
You're... really attracted to me, right?
10:23am
Me
Yes, I can't deny that I still feel that way..
10:23am
Him
Mhm.
So, just saying, if we did start kissing... yeah.
10:24am
Me
You're really attracted to me too right?
10:24am
Him
I am.
10:24am
Me
So you think that the kissing would end up going further?
10:24am
Him
I do.
I think we're both so into each other, we'd end up having sex.
10:25am
Me
But we could try not to.
10:26am
Him
Yeah, but we wouldn't be thinking straight.
You know how things get when people make out.
10:27am
Me
I could already imagine my feelings and thoughts to that if it was really happening though.
10:27am
Him
How would you react?
10:29am
Me
There would just be so many sparks there I imagine and I know that we would really feel something.
10:30am
Him
You'd probably want me to take my shirt off. ^^
10:30am
Me
You should keep it on so nothing happens.
As long as you don't take your clothes off everything should be fine.
10:32am
Him
Nah just the shirt shouldn't do any harm.
Besides, I don't sleep with a shirt on.
10:33am
Me
That's kind of a start to things.
10:34am
Him
I get hot!
10:34am
Me
For no reason should I be in the bed with you either.
10:35am
Him
Sorry...
10:36am
Me
I really don't think its nice if you're not married to the person or if you're attracted to the person.
My mom and everyone would be so ashamed of me.
10:37am
Him
I'm so sorry.
10:37am
Me
You really are starting to get extreme thoughts about me now aren't you?
10:38am
Him
No!
I just want to make sure we're clear on where we stand with certain things.
10:39am
Me
I mean I guess its normal if you do, but don't get so carried away with your thoughts like that because it really isn't nice or appropriate.
10:40am
Him
I don't think I was getting carried away.
10:41am
Me
Because you actually mentioned the term sex so you were definitely thinking something.
10:42am
Him
I don't want sex with you
I told you, I asked because I didn't know what YOU wanted.
I didn't want things to be awkward between us.
10:42am
Me
Oh okay.
But why were you saying that kissing would probably lead to sex?
Was it because you didn't think you would be able to control yourself?
10:44am
Him
Actually, I was thinking that about you.
^^
10:45am
Me
And you would let me go out of control?
10:45am
Him
No I wouldn't.
I'd tell you to slow down.
10:46am
Me
I wouldn't ever get like that. I was just wondering what you would do IF that happened.
10:46am
Him
I'd tell you to calm down, like I always do. ^^
10:48am
Me
I really admired you for that you weren't that type of guy to go that far.
10:48am
Him
I wouldn't.
I hope I haven't loss your respect.
10:49am
Me
I mean I was trusting that you would be the type of guy that I could trust not to rape me like a lot of other guys are that girls shouldn't trust and I've always been careful about that.
10:51am
Him
I would never, ever, do that to you.
10:52am
Me
I could tell by how you look and the way you talk that maybe you wouldn't be that way.
10:53am
Him
Do you still trust me?
10:53am
Me
I think so.
10:55am
Him
Are you sure?
You don't sound so confident.
10:56am
Me
I was just surprised by the way you talked to me at first that's all, but I do trust you. At least more then other guys I've spoken to about these kind of things.
10:57am
Him
How did I talk to you at first?
10:58am
Me
Just especially when you said "Though, I have a feeling if we started making out, things could get out of hand quickly." And "I think we're both so into each other, we'd end up having sex"
That's all.
11:01am
Him
That was based on how you would react, not me.
11:01am
Me
Sure you're not lying?
11:02am
Him
The fact that you have to ask hurts me.
11:02am
Me
I just want you to be honest with me even if its something I don't wanna hear.
11:02am
Him
I am being honest.
But you're over-reacting.
Then I started talking about how so many guys have treated and done me wrong, lying to me and all. So here's another part of the message.
11:07am
Him
If we can't trust each other, it's not going to work...
11:07am
Me
I do trust you more then anyone else.
11:08am
Him
I'm not so sure about you right now..
11:09am
Me
Why not?
11:10am
Him
Just your lack of trust in me earlier.
I'm hurting from that.
11:10am
Me
Its just how I've always been with everyone. I always act like that. Doesn't mean I don't trust you.
I've just always been careful and maybe too careful.
11:11am
Him
Yeah, I guess...
11:13am
Me
No, ones ever gonna wanna be with me if I always act like this. It always happens every time with each and every guy and they always get the wrong idea.
11:13am
Him
Mhm.
11:14am
Me
What part of what I said are you agreeing to?
11:15am
Him
That you over-react too much and it drives guys away.
So was I really the one in the wrong here? Maybe I overreacted too much. Is it because of Autism? Why can't I control it? I'm afraid he's never going to talk to me again.
14 Jun 2013, 10:49 am
