Feeling Misogynistic and Would Like Some Advice

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It does, but I still think it's an important topic to bring up with his therapist if he hasn't already. Which is why I suggested that. Anger and frustration are not negative emotions, and there is nothing wrong with feeling those things. In fact, feeling anger is a very normal response to being harmed/abused. Everyone feels that way sometimes--it's how you act on those feelings that matter. His therapist can help him direct those feelings into healthier behaviours (like working out, going for a walk, or taking up a new hobby) when he is feeling them, instead of fantasising about hurting women.

Sure I agree, just that people who have disturbing thought often feel shame, embarrassment, self-loathing, depression, anxiety, etc. Especially if they are intrusive.

I suppose I should clarify my fantasies a bit. I am an ASFR fetishist who dabbles in somewhat guro fantasies about women having limbs broken off as they are petrified (and other related violent fantasies). But I don't really fantasize about me hurting women. I'm just fascinated with the horror of dying from petrification/gilding/dollification/etc. Or even becoming a conscious object. But lately this fetish has lacked a little luster, and I'm becoming bored with it (especially petrification asfr - dollification is a little better for me right now). I still would like to steer away from this a bit and focus more on loving women rather than lusting after them (the way I would love any male friend).

It is interesting to me that a lot of these type of memes seem to centre around an interest in Japanese subcultures. You are not the only one that have mentioned very elaborate fancies related to Japanese subcultures, like manga and anime.

Were you into this before you were aware of these Japaneses subcultures? Did your interest start with more innocent things?

I doubt you will find someone who will be receptive to this. I think you will get the usual BDSM stuff, maybe some role-play.

Honestly, it does center around a lot of Japanese stuff (hentai, for example), and it started out a little more innocent - gosh - almost six years ago. Even my ex was kind of into it (but I think she mostly just role-played for me instead of for her). I don't know, I just think I'd like to get a way from it a bit. Learn to appreciate women in as many ways as I can, you know?

It is silly to be misogynistic or 'hate' women, I've never thought of myself on some collectivized team with all the other men and if anything they're more competitors than people I'd give preference too or feel some 'brothership' with. Men and women are equally capable of being awful people and I've seen examples all my life, I don't trust the intentions of anyone really which is only semi-rational of course and my own illness but that lends yourself to a very cynical worldview. I have myself and my immediate family, there is no collective and the world doesn't care about you and would just as soon want to kill you. I'm not a jealous or envious person, I think that is where a lot of these feelings come from seeing everyone else have these relationships and wonder what the hell is wrong with you but I know full well. Depression and low-self esteem are not attractive, it's can be a viscous cycle.

Yeah, I probably could've worded that better. Thought he was already talking to his therapist about it. I was trying to help with the 'not deterring people' side of it. That could cause more problems.

Given that it is a sort of scene, these subcultures, I wonder if you just got into it because it was just something to belong to.

It is not very original IMO. Try find an interest that is not so much of clique. Sure you are are in quite an extreme niche of the culture, but the whole scene if very unoriginal (I don't mean the artwork, I mean the fandom). Also infantilism is major theme in that scene, I think as you get old that gets a bit sad.

You'd be surprised how little of that I actually find out there. Sure, I see it every now and again, but it's not really that prominent, and I'm disgusted by it anyways, as I am beginning to be disgusted by the ASFR thing in general.

I've read that the reason there's so much disturbing hentai is because Japanese culture is actually quite sexually repressive. When you suppress/repress, feelings and thoughts must find "inventive" ways to ooze out.

Fascinating. I wonder if the U.S. is headed in that direction of sexual repression as well (especially for women who, as my therapist told me, have to maintain a chaste "princess" image as children and teens). I feel like I may have been a little screwed up in that way myself - being told of the "horrors of sex," and how people need to do it after they're married (instead of "when they're ready, and with protection"), and yet being exposed to sexually explicit media constantly as a kid and teen (South Park definitely comes to mind for me, a long with a few different movies).

If you guys have the patience to read through this, I'd like to recount as many of the positive and negative interactions I've had with women as I can:

Positives - meeting my ex-girlfriend; telling her I am autistic and having her simply respond with understanding, saying that she thought she was too (and she's been actively seeking a diagnosis lately); having sex for the first time with her; talking about our favorite things together, like The Dark Tower and The 39 Clues, or Dream Theater and Toby Keith; spending birthdays with my mother (who's nicest during those times); meeting my current landlord and being offered a room for rent at her house after several months of searching; being told that I was her best student by my Russian Language professor in college.

Negatives - having my ex break up with me a few months ago; my ex getting together with my friend from college a few weeks later; "The Incident," a thirty-something-hour period of time over three years ago in which I physically hurt my ex to get out of her restraint, broke a dorm window on campus, was arrested and held in a jail cell, and was sent to a mental health center for treatment (the treatment I consider post-Incident, and spanned a few days to a week); living with my mom before she recovered as an alcoholic (I even beat her once when I was about 17 after she slapped me for not wanting to eat dinner, and I've punched and kicked a few holes in her walls and bathroom door); having my s*** therapist from college condescend to me when she told me an equally s****y joke, asking if I got jokes; having my psych professor ask me if I was low or high-functioning when I told her I was autistic (and oh, how I wanted to bitterly respond "well, what do you think?").

The list probably goes on, but these were just a few that came immediately to mind.

The thing to remember is that some individual women were nice to you, and some individual women were not. I'm sure you can also think of some men who were not nice to you, yet I presume you don't hate yourself and all men.

As for the rage issues you seem to have, in my unprofessional and limited opinion they probably stem mainly from being the child of an alcoholic. Being autistic just makes it that much harder to work through your feelings in non-destructive ways.

Sure just look at the porn habits of countries like Pakistan. High for Bestiality, Grannies, Gay Sex.

They have a concept called man/boy love. Which is men emigrate to the cities as labourers shacking up with other men. They don't see themselves as homosexual though.

Russia women's porn habits have the highest trend for anal sex. Russia is a deeply homophobic country.

Watch a movie. That's what I'd do when I was feeling upset.

Ooooooookay, now that I read it more thoroughly, I understand how you feel. I had a rocky relationship with a majority of the females in my family, broke up with an abusive girlfriend, and my unrequited love interests were cruel to me. For the longest time, I never knew a different feeling from utter contempt for women. Then I asked myself: "Why do I hate [b]all[b] of them? Only a few were malicious to me." I had female friends that I felt feelings for, but I told myself that we were just friends and left it at that. I realized that they weren't evil creatures by nature, I just managed(somehow) to attract the bad apples. That's all! You had a stroke of bad luck, don't let that cloud your judgement!