The main mistake I've made (in retrospect) is to allow myself to develop any kind of emotional connection to neurotypical women. The reason I say that is that I believe a neurotypical (of either sex) is a priori unsuitable for a relationship. Men and women are at bottom enemies, and nature has put them in a mutually exploitative, deceptive game. When you have AS (or are highly gifted or both) the mating heuristics that dictate this state of affairs are often completely disabled. That, and the following are true:
- you are by far the most sensitive (due to overexcitability)
- you have fewer options (if for no other reason, because socializing is not your full time job)
- you have nobler intent (due to lack of said heuristics)
- you have a tendency for wanting to fix things (whereas overwhelmingly NTs operate well in chaos)
I could go on I suppose. The bottom line is that you are in a far weaker position, with an "enemy" who is far more combative, and does not mind self-damage (essentially a terrorist, lol).
They are on auto-pilot, executing evolutionary adaptations which give the highest payoff in terms of offspring survivability but absolutely not in terms of individual well-being.
29 Sep 2016, 5:21 pm
