The Abdominal Snowman wrote:
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Being sexually attractive pretty much screws up your entire life if you're autistic and clueless.
Female? Maybe.
Male? Definitely.*
The whole thing is like learning that you own a safe with a billion dollars inside.
But you don't know the combination and there are a billion permutations, there's no listening for clicks with a stethoscope, and the safe is impervious even to a thermonuclear blast.
*And make no mistake about it, that difference constitutes a long standing grievance by many men on the spectrum rivaling even persecution by NTs in school. The contrast in the relative sexual value of males and females is seldom cast more sharply than in the ease in which aspie females pick up partners relative to their male counterparts. It's basically the autism version of dethronement by a younger sibling.
... I think you might be misunderstanding. I'm saying that being sexually desirable is a
bad thing. If you're saying no one wants an autistic male as compared to an autistic female - then that would actually paint the female worse off in this example. Because if she is sexually attractive, people will still see her as such, regardless of being autistic. All the autistic bit wold do would be confuse and endanger her.
In my experience, it made understanding socializing and communicating ten times harder, because everything was rife with subtext and ulterior motives because of my appearance at the time. Every time anyone had anything to do with me, it was all false, BS, lies, based on the fact that I was sexually attractive.
Every time anyone spoke to me, was nice to me, wanted to interact with me or showed any interest in me, it was because of being attractive.
They
pretended to have other reasons - they wanted to get to know me as a person, they were interested in my interests, we had things in common and could be friends - but it was all lies. The only reason anyone ever bothered with me at all was to try and trick me into having sex with them based on how well they lied to me, and when I refused, they got nasty. They projected all their own sexual social game-playing onto me, and when rejected, accused me of doing it all on purpose to tease or humiliate/reject them, trying to trick them and play games on them, that I was giving "mixed signals," etc.
I tend to be delayed in these areas, I estimate, approximately 10 years. So they were basically accusing someone of sexual misconduct who had a child's understanding of what was going on.
Nowdays it's much more straight forward. If someone is interacting with me, they're going to have a simple reason I can deal with - usually utilitarian, or just polite. I can actually be nice to people now, without them leaping to the conclusion that because I'm attractive and I'm being nice, I'm making a pass at them or inviting them to have sex with me. It's not the mine-field it was when I was younger and hadn't
fixed the sexually attractive thing yet.
/rant.