Anyone terrified of being alone for the rest of their life?

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09 Mar 2021, 7:59 pm

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My main motivation in dating used to be the fear of being alone. I was in a pattern of obsessing over one girl after another until I met someone who’d never had a boyfriend and apparently had similar issues. Not unpredictably the relationship turned toxic. My first clue should have been how easy it was to cheat on her after the first couple of years. But as I was halfway into college I figured it was too late to start over. All it took was getting attention from one girl I’d met at a summer camp years earlier to think maybe there was hope for me yet. So about a month and a half before we were supposed to get married, I broke up with her.

I ended up impregnating one of the would-be bridesmaids a few times. It’s been a good life.

In between I went out with a few girls, a couple of dates that went nowhere to a short-lived fling with an engaged redhead to a relationship that lasted a little over a year (college freshman while I was getting my master’s). I don’t care how old you are, it’s never really over. My high school sweetheart toxicity problem was resolved when it dawned on me that choosing a life with her versus a life alone just wasn’t worth it. Even if I hadn’t dated after her or married someone else, I STILL wouldn’t regret leaving her. If it happens that you never find “the one,” give yourself enough credit considering how many bullets you’ve dodged. It’s entirely, logically possible you are much better off single.


This sounds really horrible 8O


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09 Mar 2021, 8:01 pm

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I have a younger friend 1/2 my age , she said the exact same thing to me about being the parent acting one in our friendship . But am better at some technical electronic things then her . .


Autistic people tend to be childlike.
There is a physical reason for that.
Part of our brain doesn't develop the way NT brains develop.

BTW, We are not wrong.
We are different. 8)


Childlike in what ways?


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09 Mar 2021, 8:03 pm

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I should have been a grandparent at my age....I’m not. I’m still a youngun myself....

There are many straight male/straight female friendships that have no sex. I believe there is sometimes a secret desire for sex. I feel, at times, that this secret desire enhances the friendship, and can lead to “more” under the right circumstances.


"Should have been"?
Mate, you dodged a bullet there, bigtime. 8)


Yeah, my sentiments exactly.


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09 Mar 2021, 8:04 pm

I'm a 60-year-old man.

I still act like a kid sometimes LOL

I meow in the subways, and say certain phrases when I take my walk. I also howl.



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09 Mar 2021, 8:07 pm

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That was my position at 30 years old. I told my therapist that I accepted that fear as a fact. He said that it was the best thing that I could do. I also never stopped looking for a significant other though. I got married 3 years later. He was just like me. I thought I was the only one who felt like a bottom-of-the-barrel-nobody. It was the VERY first time that another person genuinely cared about me other than my mother. I could've married him sooner but I had trust issues and wanted to delay marriage (just in case I was hallucinating). We're still together 30 years later. Nowadays I accepted the fact that he could leave me or it is possible that he could die before me. We all just have to take life as it comes. Just live your life and don't set goals that are out of your control. Pray a lot. Believe in God. Without God, there isn't much more. Just yesterday, I said the same thing to my own daughter who is only 21 and already she is feeling the sting of what we all talk about and go through - it hurts even more to hear it from your kid - because you know the feeling yourself. You feel as though your very DNA is to blame - this is where prayer helps. A person can always start a support group for those who feel this way - I don't know how but I'd imagine it to be a do-able thing (at least after Covid-19 is controlled).


God is a great comfort and the influence grows stronger the more a person thinks about it.
I feel like I will eventually find someone, it just takes time and patience. I hope it happens before I get much older, though.


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09 Mar 2021, 8:11 pm

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I'm a 60-year-old man.

I still act like a kid sometimes LOL

I meow in the subways, and say certain phrases when I take my walk. I also howl.


Nothing wrong with any of that. Well, maybe the howling, depending if other people hear you. Really?

I speak in tongues. Every day, alone in my house. A strange magic is being wrought by the phrases. Maybe it keeps the Earth spinning in orbit for all I know.

I also talk to my cat.


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09 Mar 2021, 8:18 pm

People do hear me howl; they think I'm nuts LOL



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09 Mar 2021, 9:19 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
I'm a 60-year-old man.

I still act like a kid sometimes LOL

I meow in the subways, and say certain phrases when I take my walk. I also howl.


This coulda have been written by me also , except my interactions with cats can lead to brief conversations.
This includes the offhand argument with Harris sparrows.


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09 Mar 2021, 9:23 pm

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People do hear me howl; they think I'm nuts LOL


So that occurs often ...looolz. Joke.


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09 Mar 2021, 9:28 pm

I'm a nice nuts :P



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09 Mar 2021, 9:35 pm

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09 Mar 2021, 9:59 pm

Gentleman Argentum wrote:
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I have a younger friend 1/2 my age , she said the exact same thing to me about being the parent acting one in our friendship . But am better at some technical electronic things then her . .


Autistic people tend to be childlike.
There is a physical reason for that.
Part of our brain doesn't develop the way NT brains develop.

BTW, We are not wrong.
We are different. 8)


Childlike in what ways?


Trusting.
Naive.
Overly honest.
Playful.



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09 Mar 2021, 10:01 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
I'm a 60-year-old man.

I still act like a kid sometimes LOL

I meow in the subways, and say certain phrases when I take my walk. I also howl.


Like I said, we tend to be childlike, rather than childish. 8)



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10 Mar 2021, 4:46 am

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People do hear me howl; they think I'm nuts LOL


Yeah I don't know about that one kraftie.


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10 Mar 2021, 9:29 am

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my dad had somebody to take care of him until he passed. i will have no such luxury.

A hug is offered .....with a smile . :D

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10 Mar 2021, 5:21 pm

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my dad had somebody to take care of him until he passed. i will have no such luxury.

A hug is offered .....with a smile . :D

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