Not having your life in order.

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Always found it odd that "sex" was placed on a level with things required to sustain individual biological life.
"Couldn't get any" has never been a COD that I've heard of.

I have "physiological", "love", and "self-actualization".
Interesting how some, like "morality" and "family" are on two different levels.
Can I skip two spaces if I roll snake eyes?

I've found sex being at the bottom of the pyramid seems to apply more to the dregs of society. Remember this is a list of needs rather than an essential order of things to progress one's life. Psychologically most of us are having our needs met probably up to and around the middle tier, taking sex and intimacy out of the equation of course. This would apply to the OP.

I have the top tier and I still feel like sh** most of the time.

Homeostasis (for instance, CO2 vs. blood oxygen levels) absent, a person DIES. With sex, not so much. I understand it can deeply impact someone's self esteem and feeling, but it's placement at the bottom seems wrong.

It makes me wonder if something was lost in translation... after all, "sexual intimacy" is up there in the right place.

^^^ I doubt it... you won't die from lack of sex. Even no sex at all.

Hmmm... some sort of base gender determination? The organs themselves? Or in the sense it was required to create YOU, thus it had to be there somewhere - plus also required to create someone else. [shrug]

That or Maslow was just horny.

I have the top tier and I still feel like sh** most of the time.

I feel this is my biggest barrier to dating. My house is full of fleas. It smells bad from my cats. The car I drive is cluttered to all hell and beat up looking. My room is a mess like it normally is. I've got no job, I'm not in school. I found out much to my dismay I actually do have NVLD/Aspergers, and there is mental things wrong with me afterall, though not what the psychs initially told me. Let's see, I currently wake up at like noon or later, too.

My life is literally and figuratively a complete mess. And my thought process is, why should I bring a girl into my mess of a life? I denied myself to one girl I really liked, and she married someone else and I felt bad about it, but my logical thought process during this time was basically this. My life is too screwed up to allow a romantic relationship. And so, in my dealings with females, despite my normal NVLD/Aspergers dumbness I have with everyone (which I guess to some people is charming in a strange way) I sorta purposely set myself up to like, not get into romantic relationships for the reason of me not being like, perfect yet. I don't know really. I don't like the idea of like, hmm, how do I put this....being a loser boyfriend? A girl bringing me home to her parents and "So what do you do..." "uh....well, I....." Things like that. Like I can't see it like, logical, for a girl to like me. I can't think of really anything positive I'd add to the girl's life, and I'd feel like a leech, if you would. Maybe this is my like, old fashioned imagery of a man being a "provider" so to speak for the woman, too.

Logically, in my mind, I say "now isn't a good time for a girlfriend, fix things up and go back to it" but then in the rest of my life, I start things completely at "wrong" times. For example, I decided I was going to learn figure skating just through sheer brute force and effort, without a coach, etc, just all by myself. It's a pretty asinine thing to do, but somehow my "faith" in it made it work somewhat. Same with lots of things. At the same time, I've had lots of failures and slow progress due to not having, well, proper equipment and things "in order." But if I wait for a good time, there could never be a good time? I've been waiting for a good time since middle school, really, and the times seem to only get worse for the most part.

Maybe this is an error in perceptions on my part, too. Like, perfectionism. Like I can't consider myself a "good" figure skater, or a "good" weightlifter or a "good" mechanic, simply because I'm not at a high level in either of them. Compared to an average person, I'm better, but compared to like, a "professional" at them, I'm bad. But I compare myself to the "professionals." Instead of saying "Wow, you can do 3 turns and waltz jumps figure skating" I think "Why can't you do an axel yet? Why can't you spin, you have bad left backward crossovers." People even compliment me on these things, and I'm sorta confused, as I don't see myself as "good" at them, and see every error I make. In things like cars, many times I can pull off repairing other people's cars, but my own stay in my garage broken. But people still hire me as a mechanic? Why? And it makes me so mad when things aren't, well, some people would say this is perfectionism, but...when things aren't as they should. I did some brakes, bled them like 3 times, still a sort of soft pedal at the end. The guy's wife said she didn't like the brakes, he said they were fine for him. For me, I would have literally stayed up til midnight or 1am bleeding brakes until they felt perfect to me. I feel like this is the only way to succeed in life, to be endlessly self critical, because if you're not, you're just basically being lazy.

Like, I'm around a fair amount of girls, due to my hobbies, but I don't allow myself to get close to any of them, due to my insecurities, which I perceive as being, well, logical insecurities. The problem is less a matter of all girls hating me or whatever, and more just me not feeling like I should even be in a relationship at all because of all my problems. Does anyone else deal with anything like this?

I would say that's true. Ive not seen too many (or really any?) stories like, say, Cinderella, with the roles reversed.