Lilya wrote:
Thank you, Kjas

Thanks for sharing your experience.
I'd much rather see people just as people, but I dislike a lot of aspects that could follow from his position. I do value my privacy and I dislike the fact that he does seem to be proudly a ladies man.
If it would have been my way to begin with, I would have just had a traditional date with a person who seems like a very charming guy. Right now the whole situation feels somehow twisted, but tempting at the same time. It's never been my desire to "use" someone and I don't want to be toyed with either. I do respect him as a person and quite honestly, I like him as a person, even though I keep reasoning to myself that I shouldn't fall for him. I can't see him treating me as an equal partner, especially when I've already allowed him to have it his way.
I too, prefer to see people as just people.
And while I can, and do that as much as is possible, there are times when you have to confront reality. And the reality is that the rest of the world doesn't see it that way - even though you do. If you date a celeberity, if you date someone who is extremely rich, or if you date someone from an elite family, you have to consider the realities of the situation. And he has already made it clear that what the public thinks comes before you - which forces you to put what they think ahead of you too, if you want to continue being with him.
I don't think you used him and it's understandable that you don't want to be toyed with. He's been up front about what this was and what he wants. Have you? Not just to him, but to yourself?
It feels twisted for a reason - it's like trying to have something with him but there's another thing there that you always have to be mindful of (the public), creating artificial limits where there shouldn't be any.
If you know he's not going to be respectful enough to treat you as an equal, then wouldn't it be better to leave before you fall for him? I'm not saying right now, enjoy it while it lasts or for as long as you can safely, but keep a close tab on your feelings so that you can still extract yourself when you need to. There's nothing wrong with enjoying him as a person, as long as you don't get yourself hurt in the process.