nowwithretsin wrote:
When you look at the opposite sex, do you believe that they could possibly be interested in you (beyond mere information sharing)? That they could want, and desire you. That they would want to make room in their busy schedule for you. That they could possibly, one way or another, love you.
I don't know any other way on how to word this. You either look at an attractive member of the opposite sex, and think, 'wow, gorgeous/handsome', and think they they could, possibly, after conversation and time with you, want to spend time with you and be with you...
or you don't.
I don't. And so I don't try. And all around me are girls with other guys, and it hurts, because I want that too, so bad.
Is it possible that if you date enough, and have enough girls tell you that they want and desire you, you could believe it to be true? That you could feel accepted and loved.
(I'm sorry, but this is heartbreaking for me. And it hurts so bad)