Should I just kill myself?

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Ah, didn't know there was a history... I learned my lesson once...






If they misinterpreted your last one... uh oh...

OddSock, it sounds like your pretty self aware; I tend to have the same problem although not quite to the degree where I'm cutting. I think your big challenge in your life is come to terms and be at peace with who you are on the outside as much as the inside, its hard and especially when you feel like its causing the problems (I feel the same a lot of times). Just try to hedge your way around it, try to boost your self esteem in many ways as you can completely separate from getting guys - regardless of whether you can land things or regardless of whether or not the pain your feeling is over real issues (it has to be) I think that's your challenge; you need to do what's right for yourself and when you have habits like this and flay yourself over the things you can't help - it not only makes you ill but stunts your emotional and social development because your priorities have you off somewhere in your own head, and its scary to think after trying to muscle your way through what you wanted to change and after all that sunk effort that what you really need to do - now that you've proven it won't change, is to come to peace for your own mental health.

You don't need a man to be dignified and be somebody, that and I think you'd be surprised once the confidence and assertiveness comes around just how much that makes a difference.

I don't see WHAT'S to be misinterpreted.

Just imagining the terrible news of someone actually responding to your terrible sexual preference...

They'll turn waisting away into skin and bones... into just plain bones.

I would suggest dieting rather than throwing up food. I only eat two normal sized meals a day and never snack, which is a good way to not gain weight. Since you also want to lose weight, you should exercise some too, like walking.

Also, don't kill yourself.

Anyone who wants me badly enough to
die for sex with me (prior no less) is too
f****d up to blame me for.

Don't be like Owen Wilson.

The decision is yours.

i agree. hopefully you'll make the right one

Don't become "an hero". It sounds to me like you're trying to reduce your bone structure by starving yourself, and that's sure not going to work! Go eat a cheeseburger and spite the world. The herd humans aren't worthy to judge you anyway.


In the past I struggled with suicidal thoughts myself, because I believed I was a complete failure at life. But life is a journey, just because you don't like how the road in front of you looks is no reason to stop the ar and get out. You never know what's around the next curve. And besides, you only get to live once. Live well! Live without regret and love with no remorse.

I am approximately the same size as you, 5'1" and 127 pounds. Bulimia is a terrible disease. It can cause a lot of problems that can lead to death. Terry Schiavo, the woman who was at the center of a contentious "right to die" battle, was bulimic. She wound up blind and comatose. Please don't kill yourself. Get help.

you could do with a true objective opinion, but we all know that's an almost impossible thing to gain in real life.