Just be yourself..

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Which I am doing. Just go with the flow, and respect their decisions.

I had this exact same drunken conversation in Prague the day this thread was created when I was there with a couple of university friends (although granted, as an aspie, I then spent two days by myself to recover).

The essential line of argument seemed to pivot on the fact that a) you make it easier for yourself not being yourself b) pretending to be someone else will give you access to relationship experience so you won't mess up a relationship with someone you actually care about and c) you need to hide yourself from someone so you have something to reveal. These all seem hideously contrived rationalisations of groupthink but watevs. I then incidentally expressed what was described the most cynical view on relationships they'd ever heard.

Yes (to the part I underlined), I'm a slightly different version of myself depending on whom I'm interacting with.
Each separate individual evokes a certain range of reactions and disclosures and conversation from me,
so I cannot say I'm some unitary self who is just one single way (behaviorally or mentally).

I face this quandary regularly: "how much of myself dare I be ?", out in public amongst strangers, on a dating site or the internet in general, etc.
I don't have answers, though-it's a perpetual "balancing act" that I have to struggle with and renegotiate every day, and I'm never sure how well I'm doing.