I'm tired of this s**t!

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I can't drive and my family doesn't own any cars.

Just saying... You're not alone there.

i can't drive.


i didn't go to prom.


yes i did have this.


i did not have those.


yes i did date.


i graduated when i was 33.


i went when i was 27 (yes, before my high school diploma). it is not too late if that is what you want to do. if you don't want to do it then don't worry about it.


you need to understand that you are on an aspie board surrounded by people with similar struggles. at your age i was living in the projects, was stealing toilet paper, and had to shortchange my bus fare to get to work. i had a different set of problems, but like you i also had some things going for me.

i know what you're thinking... that you don't have anything going for you. but you do... you've got a roof over your head, a family that cares for you, and food on the table. you have your health, and you have a gift with the written word***. you are young and you have a choice to change your entire life if you are brave enough to try.

you said before that there is no reason to wash yourself because the house is so dirty so you will smell anyway. well, there are free places that can help you to get it clean if the job is too big for your family. churches, charities, social services agencies, etc can assist you. use the google and make a call, or even anonymously call your city or town's general referral line (usually community services has a switchboard).

i know you also said your sister is scared from past experiences (PTSD?) and has a problem at night, and that must be contributing to the general problems in the house too. she needs help so that her nighttime issues can be helped, and she has emotional needs that are too big to be ignored. it's more than you can really help her with, even though it seems like you are doing everything you can to be there for her. if she is not already seeing a doctor or therapist, she could benefit from a free clinic of some kind to get support.

the thing is that... yes, things are very hard for you right now and your situation is difficult. but i think it may help you to ease up the burden and improve your environment first of all so that you don't feel surrounded by a deep hopeless funk. help your family and get your surroundings cleaned up and you may start to feel a little more hopeful.


***take notice that some people who are better educated and supposedly smarter than you on WP can hardly write as well as you.

I said it and I'll repeat again: MR20, you are quite eloquent and you write well. Not that the level of writing skills always reveals someone's education, but I honestly thought you were highly educated.

Just because it doesn`t come easy for you doesn`t mean you should quit trying. All you`re doing is whining on the internet while you could be out there making something of your life.

Stop being ignorant and go do something, take small steps and take NOTHING for granted.
Sure SOME people may take it for granted but A LOT don`t. Your view on the world is not in sync with reality.

Well I know kind of how that feels.......I am not in your exact situation but I am quite depressed so I know how it feels to be tired of it all. Sorry I don't have much advice on how to feel better as for not driving though are there buses or any sort of public transportation? I don't drive because I can't afford a car and I would get too anxious driving in traffic so its probably better if I don't. I think its pretty understandable how you feel.

I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid of the pressure of trying to fit in and be accepted. I have to change the way I act, talk, and try to mask my lack of intelligence and knowledge. And even then it only works for a short while, then they'll start treating me the same other people have in the past.

I told myself long ago that I would stay locked in my house, away from people, rather than get made fun of, used, humiliated, and talked down to. I won't take any of that crap anymore.

My Grandma is renting.

I haven all the thing above except for gas/hot water.

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So you decided to just let it be and don`t try to chance it? Then all hope is indeed lost.

You're right, sadly.

Then why are you still posting? You`re slightly hinting that you want help.

idk I guess this is my way of venting and blowing off some frustration.

You do realise you`re insulting/annoying a lot of people in the process?

You do realize I don't care right?

If you don't like what I'm saying you don't have to open, read, and/or reply to anything I post.

If you don`t care, why do you share it with us then? What you just said makes no sense whatsoever.

What I meant is that I'm going to keep talking about the way I feel about myself, life, etc regardless if some people here are annoyed by me or what I say.