Gamester wrote:
Aspie_for_the_Lord wrote:
i reached a decision earlier today (well a few hours ago), i had a talk with God, and i decided to give this area of my life to him.
despite being mortally afraid, i told him he can have it, and do what he likes with it, i said i know he knows what i want, but that i have decided to let what he wants to happen. that if he wants me to be single for the rest of my life, so be it, and if he wants me to be with someone, no matter who, then i will do that as well.
i have let go of the desire and given it to God, i still have the want of course, but i have decided to not dwell on it and concentrate on other things...
Bravo! AfTL that is really mature of you. I'll tell you this though. My mentor for confirmation did the same thing when he was in college( don't know if you're in college.....) and it worked well for him, he let go and God worked worked in his life very well, and he ended up married later on in life, he's still married to this day, because of dedicating that part of his life to God.
Well im 24, but im at college now and going to University (confusing as we call College University over here in England, our college is like after high school but before College as you see it)
what do you mean by confirmation?
i hope it works out too, i cant get rid of the desire and emotive feelings, but i can CHOOSE to concentrate on other things and not dwell on it, i have asked God for the strength to go through with this. im sure he understands, and probably better than i do how hard it may be... but i have given it to him... LOL im still getting chills from the potential possibilty that he might want me to stay single.
its all up to him now, for good or bad (this is from my perspective of course, all that God does works for the good, even if we do not see it).
_________________
i am that which i am...