Is this really too much to ask

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Well, the said girl, whom I was "not wanting" only two short weeks ago, just broke up with me, because she found someone else. Now guess what. I just changed my mind about everythign I said and I believe she was a great catch after all. Why? Well, she described doing all these wonderful and fun things with her new boyfriend (movies, rock climbing, volleyball and so forth)! And the reason I was saying she was "not normal" is because she was NOT doing them with me. But on her end she thought that I was the one not liking to do these things: she was bringing them up as examples that we are not compatible, but these are the exact reasons why WE ARE compatible (I was not liking her for presumed fact that SHE doesn't do these things while I know I like them). So now I feel like a fool. For the past year I was agonizing over how I can't date anyone normal when in fact she IS normal BUT she hid it from me thus making ME not like her.

I mean look at my post I wrote a year ago: http://www.physicsforums.com/showthread.php?t=515451 Even BACK THEN I was wanting to dump her. Well if I were to utilize this whole entire year I was agonizing about being stuck with her into making relationship better, who knows maybe things WOULD HAVE worked. But then again how would I possibly have done it if I didn't even KNOW she had anything to offer to begin with. So I feel like she had tricked me into doing dirty job for her. Yes she has a lot to offer TO THE RIGHT MAN. But she never considered me to be the right man. Therefore in order to let me down easy, she PRETENDED as if there was nothing to offer me so that perhaps I will lose interest myself which would make it easier to dump me at the end.

You see, she didn't want to date me at first because one of her friends told her how it is bad to date someone with autism. I was not able to accept it and started arguing with her about it in order to persuade her to date me. Finally, after so much efforts she agreed to date me. But after we were dating three things happened

1. She was a roller coaster and she was having fights with me every week and I can count 7 or 8 different guys she tried to dump me for the duration of a relationship

2. During the time she liked me, she REALLY REALLY liked me to the point that

a) She spent hours on hours chatting with me which compromised my physics

b) She kept pushing me for marriage which scared me (see http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt177253.html ) and encouraged me to be half assed as one of the ''straws'' to grasp upon in order to make her just a little bit less pushy about the whole marriage business (yet, she blamed my half assed attitude on "autism" while it is entirely possible I would have been less half assed if I were to actually enjoy the relationship)

3. During the last half a year or a year of a relatonship she ''became respectful'' regarding issue 2a, so she actually started to tell me herself to talk to her less and to study more. Here I was thinking "wow it is the most easy going relationship I ever had" but I was wrong. The reason she was sending me to do physics is that she didnt like me any more. But she acted as if she liked me and merely cared about my physics. That is another way to get me to do her dirty job without much argument.

I mean it is completely ridiculous. You see how I spent this entire post obsessing about girls OTHER THAN her. Well now that I found out THE TRUTH (namely that SHE dumped ME) somehow my obsession about Anne as well as any of the other gilrs I ever mentioned momentarily evaporated. NOW I am obsessing ONLY about the girl I was "not liking" few days ago AND HER ONLY. I think she probably knew thats what will happen and THATS WHY she didnt tell me she was dumping me until it became completely too late.

I mean it feels like some kind of lottery. Like she only found the new guy few days ago and after only few hours of talking to him OOOOOPPPPPPSSSSSSS it became completely too late as far as I am concerned. I was trying to tell her to just back off and be with me, but she didnt want to because she promised him somethng and she doesn't want to toy with him, not even for just few short days. Yet it is fine with her to toy with me when she had me thinking i was with her for TWO AND A HALF YEARS; but lead someone else on for few days and then back off is not okay.

This is another reason why I changed my mind about my prevous "dislike" of her. I was thinking she had commitment issues due to her sex abuse as a child. Now I see I was wrong. She is EXTREMELY loyal as evident from just how stable she is with that other guy. So why not with me?

What is even more ridiculous is that I spent TWO YEARS agonizing about being "traped" with her, and YET i managed to "miss out" just for FEW SHORT DAYS. Well, why didn't she let me know what she can offer during these two years that I had? Why did she made me not like her UNTIL it became too late? I just really feel like I was manipulated into "not liking her" because the truth is that SHE didnt like ME. Well she should have told this to me. Maybe we would have been able to try to work through things. We had two years to do that!

True - the Bible basically said that once you had sex, you were essentially married.

Yeah within past few months I have heard this point being made by some Christians, and the intention was to claim that sex outside marriage is okay. But from my perspective, if true, the implications would be far scarrier than that (and the ones no one besides me ever mentioned). If, throughout your entire life, you had sex with more than one person, thats polygamy. In other words, if 20 years ago you had sex with someone, you are not allowed to have sex with anyone other than the person you had sex with 20 years ago. If, on the other hand, 20 years ago you had sex with one person, and 10 years ago with someone else, then you are guilty of polygamy right now today and you can't do anything about it.

Now I am not saying I agree with the above. I wish someone could convince me it is not true. But I guess Christians should at least seriously consider it and try to respond to it. The only conceivable response to the above claim I can think of is that sex is not marriage, after all. Now, if you will agree that sex is not marriage you should also take it to logical conclusion that you need formal marriage ceremony before having sex.